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Jun. 28th, 2025 03:49 pmsorry, its always been like this. i remember asking a chick why she got silicone? because some other woman had it. it wasnt a guy saying her boobs were too small. its almost never that. and they fight so hard on looks, that its not about guys or sex or anything, its just a way to burn money. btw, men make 60% of the money in the world, but women burn 60% of it. so, no, they dont want equal wages, because then they cant blackmail men into buying them stuff. it seems the worst place for this is denmark. i dont know why. and even in the 1960s they took in immigrants, and almost immediatly didnt like them. danish government even went out with an ad saying "get pregnant more".
really, the only women existing in the world are lesbians in denial that prefer anal sex but hate homosexuals, eventhough theyre literally gay men in womens bodies. as for the men? theyre all manginas. they dont dare to speak up. maybe they did that once, but then a woman screams "rape" "narcissist" or whatever the fuck you can imagine. they love calling guys faggots too. and that they got small dicks. uhm, i dont whine about your nipples not being hard enough when im talking to you? or why their pussy isnt wet when weve eaten a fucking hamburger together? but this women whine about all day long.
and fashion? omg. its still the same. guy fashion is nonexistant (if you diverge, youre, of course, gay). and then women whine about that they have to shave their armpits. WHAT? why do you use shirts that show them? or that they have fat on their upper arms? why do you show them then? and now theres some weird fetish of women NOT shaving their armpits? and they feel so feministic with this? when they created the problem in the first place? its like arguing over abortion. who gives a fuck. its just a technology. maybe in the next predecential election itll be "america is for women not shaving their arms" or "you are against us!".
theres now more muslims than christians in the world, thank god. all christians do all day is lie. except that abrahamanian religions are actually based on egyptology, where the only real sin was not telling the truth.
and with cuntology ruling the world, no one actually wants to discuss things anymore. literally yesterday a woman on facebook said "you arent likeminded like me so ill block you". my main occupation now is getting blocked on social media. its even easier on bitchute (whiney bitch overload) and not that hard on minds either.
"how men even feel about it" you think they think men exist? give me a break. they all want wellness to be the next religion. "look inwards, dont think with your mind, thats ego, use your heart". seriously, they have never asked a man whats on his mind. guys think primarily with their minds and muscles. the only muscles a woman has to develop nowadays is the ability to spread their legs, and bend over. and the worst bipolar disease (available for luxury whores only) is anorexia + bulimia, its never just one, youd be dead in a year then.
anyway, the way men work, and i say this from a perspective as an artist who thinks with both their brainhalves who everyone thinks is a teen girl, whos also lesbian? even butch dyke.
men want to improve the world. make it easier for his woman or fellow man. wtf does a woman want? they want infinite fucking useless meetings. yes meeting culture is the ultimate feminism, it has nothing to do with socialism. i mean, its a great idea right? everyone gets to talk, all day, then 10% is used for actual work. i even wonder how office environment jobs can produce a profit. as they never actually... produce anything. it seems to work sometimes, other times, you get clusterfucks like daikatana and cyberpunk2077.
and the weirdest statistic ive ever heard this year. 1.6 billion jobs are in the economy section. does this mean nigeria has taken over all of africa, and everyone there is employed to fool western people off of their riches?
and yeah, whats the female occupation nowadays? getting likes. its not much else. no one cares for replies. they just want statistics. its like a diamond ring that just keeps getting bigger. yes, women are inferior in every single sport on the planet. they are inferior in handling statistics, boss jobs, fuck, i dont know what theyre actually good at. bulimia and anorexia is based on a number gotten from a scale. remove the fucking scale and the fucking mirror and youll be alright. or get a scale that shows bone percentage, water, fat, muscle, but that would be too complicated, theyd had to juggle more than 1 number.
i dunno about other places, but all women in stockholm are incurable alcoholics, anorectics, liars, shallow, whorey, boob size about the same of their brain (that is, A, at most, they have the smallest boobs in the whole world, its not what german tabloid magazines say) and the self confidence of a fucking wet cardboard piece. you cant critique them, you, the world, or anything, or their brains will just blow up. you should be their cute fuckboy that never says no. for anything else they need, they have infinite amount of other losers.
and yes, ai has surpassed human intelligence. it hasnt actually improved in any way, but, damn, staring at a fucking screen all day watching netflix or tiktok, and pressing a like button with a fucking thumb even a god damn fly can do. they like bright lights and shit. just like the women of today. except they got AI shit polishers too.
really, the only women existing in the world are lesbians in denial that prefer anal sex but hate homosexuals, eventhough theyre literally gay men in womens bodies. as for the men? theyre all manginas. they dont dare to speak up. maybe they did that once, but then a woman screams "rape" "narcissist" or whatever the fuck you can imagine. they love calling guys faggots too. and that they got small dicks. uhm, i dont whine about your nipples not being hard enough when im talking to you? or why their pussy isnt wet when weve eaten a fucking hamburger together? but this women whine about all day long.
and fashion? omg. its still the same. guy fashion is nonexistant (if you diverge, youre, of course, gay). and then women whine about that they have to shave their armpits. WHAT? why do you use shirts that show them? or that they have fat on their upper arms? why do you show them then? and now theres some weird fetish of women NOT shaving their armpits? and they feel so feministic with this? when they created the problem in the first place? its like arguing over abortion. who gives a fuck. its just a technology. maybe in the next predecential election itll be "america is for women not shaving their arms" or "you are against us!".
theres now more muslims than christians in the world, thank god. all christians do all day is lie. except that abrahamanian religions are actually based on egyptology, where the only real sin was not telling the truth.
and with cuntology ruling the world, no one actually wants to discuss things anymore. literally yesterday a woman on facebook said "you arent likeminded like me so ill block you". my main occupation now is getting blocked on social media. its even easier on bitchute (whiney bitch overload) and not that hard on minds either.
"how men even feel about it" you think they think men exist? give me a break. they all want wellness to be the next religion. "look inwards, dont think with your mind, thats ego, use your heart". seriously, they have never asked a man whats on his mind. guys think primarily with their minds and muscles. the only muscles a woman has to develop nowadays is the ability to spread their legs, and bend over. and the worst bipolar disease (available for luxury whores only) is anorexia + bulimia, its never just one, youd be dead in a year then.
anyway, the way men work, and i say this from a perspective as an artist who thinks with both their brainhalves who everyone thinks is a teen girl, whos also lesbian? even butch dyke.
men want to improve the world. make it easier for his woman or fellow man. wtf does a woman want? they want infinite fucking useless meetings. yes meeting culture is the ultimate feminism, it has nothing to do with socialism. i mean, its a great idea right? everyone gets to talk, all day, then 10% is used for actual work. i even wonder how office environment jobs can produce a profit. as they never actually... produce anything. it seems to work sometimes, other times, you get clusterfucks like daikatana and cyberpunk2077.
and the weirdest statistic ive ever heard this year. 1.6 billion jobs are in the economy section. does this mean nigeria has taken over all of africa, and everyone there is employed to fool western people off of their riches?
and yeah, whats the female occupation nowadays? getting likes. its not much else. no one cares for replies. they just want statistics. its like a diamond ring that just keeps getting bigger. yes, women are inferior in every single sport on the planet. they are inferior in handling statistics, boss jobs, fuck, i dont know what theyre actually good at. bulimia and anorexia is based on a number gotten from a scale. remove the fucking scale and the fucking mirror and youll be alright. or get a scale that shows bone percentage, water, fat, muscle, but that would be too complicated, theyd had to juggle more than 1 number.
i dunno about other places, but all women in stockholm are incurable alcoholics, anorectics, liars, shallow, whorey, boob size about the same of their brain (that is, A, at most, they have the smallest boobs in the whole world, its not what german tabloid magazines say) and the self confidence of a fucking wet cardboard piece. you cant critique them, you, the world, or anything, or their brains will just blow up. you should be their cute fuckboy that never says no. for anything else they need, they have infinite amount of other losers.
and yes, ai has surpassed human intelligence. it hasnt actually improved in any way, but, damn, staring at a fucking screen all day watching netflix or tiktok, and pressing a like button with a fucking thumb even a god damn fly can do. they like bright lights and shit. just like the women of today. except they got AI shit polishers too.
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Jun. 28th, 2025 01:35 pmi am a baphomet
i have evolved
i have 3 cocks now
1 pussy
they tried to hide it
but that just means my balls are fucking enormous
but behing them? your average run of the mill 1 fist compatible cunthole
right now
im not even sure what phantom cock has erection
its throbbing and trying to penetrate some part inside of me
i dont really know what
som en hand i handske
ooooh
now it feels like its filled my entire stomache?
and trying to get into my heart?
oh my............
i have evolved
i have 3 cocks now
1 pussy
they tried to hide it
but that just means my balls are fucking enormous
but behing them? your average run of the mill 1 fist compatible cunthole
right now
im not even sure what phantom cock has erection
its throbbing and trying to penetrate some part inside of me
i dont really know what
som en hand i handske
ooooh
now it feels like its filled my entire stomache?
and trying to get into my heart?
oh my............
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Sep. 27th, 2024 03:27 pmi guess this site is pretty dead.
and all those 4channers never got my stories. they just subscribe. sigh.
but if you do you get any updates automagically.
anyway. i used to be so nervy about what people thought of me.
got trolled 2 times loooong ago. that was it.
bli inte som de
va inte en lögnare
with the nanochip i got majorly trolled once again
something like
im going to try to say
this in the nicest possible way
you seem unstable
and may hurt yourself
if you got professional help
it would be useful
wow
sounded serious
fell for it
anyway anime
people are neat
way long ago
some dude said
you could call it
dont shed on me
an introspective
look at morality
oh
it rhymes
never noticed
that before
then he posted
a furry doing
it with a car
that took days
to remove from
my retinas
lol
im worse though
or about the
same level
^____^
luvv cats
as for not
being able
to watch vids
thats actually good
they hijack your mind
"the only purpose of
televion is to arrest
human intelligence long
enough to extract
money from it"
anyway tracey is alright
! ! MISS BRANDT YOURE GREAT ! !
ill change my opinion of that
in a planck constant though
lol we
did i post this before
("yes")
sigh...
and all those 4channers never got my stories. they just subscribe. sigh.
but if you do you get any updates automagically.
anyway. i used to be so nervy about what people thought of me.
got trolled 2 times loooong ago. that was it.
bli inte som de
va inte en lögnare
with the nanochip i got majorly trolled once again
something like
im going to try to say
this in the nicest possible way
you seem unstable
and may hurt yourself
if you got professional help
it would be useful
wow
sounded serious
fell for it
anyway anime
people are neat
way long ago
some dude said
you could call it
dont shed on me
an introspective
look at morality
oh
it rhymes
never noticed
that before
then he posted
a furry doing
it with a car
that took days
to remove from
my retinas
lol
im worse though
or about the
same level
^____^
luvv cats
as for not
being able
to watch vids
thats actually good
they hijack your mind
"the only purpose of
televion is to arrest
human intelligence long
enough to extract
money from it"
anyway tracey is alright
! ! MISS BRANDT YOURE GREAT ! !
ill change my opinion of that
in a planck constant though
lol we
did i post this before
("yes")
sigh...
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Sep. 26th, 2024 07:57 ami am now in a constant state of deja vu
the strange part is
this isnt because of neuroleptics
(or so they say)
but rather curses from people
and as i wrote this all before
the exact same things happened then
healed the vagus nerve
no neuroleptics
no OCD
no anxiety
no vampire entities
no fear of the dark
(but light beings instead)
no drugs
no creativity
the strange part is
this isnt because of neuroleptics
(or so they say)
but rather curses from people
and as i wrote this all before
the exact same things happened then
healed the vagus nerve
no neuroleptics
no OCD
no anxiety
no vampire entities
no fear of the dark
(but light beings instead)
no drugs
no creativity
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Sep. 25th, 2024 07:55 pmright. so i wrote the same thing years ago. 2022 it seems. and wow. i fixed up my life then? had completely forgotten about all those things.
anyway, you cant get out of the psychiatric system. like i said. a single pill of 1mg can do wonders. but when they lock you in a mental ward for weeks or months, and punish you for whatever reason they want. then stock you full of more and more pills. and its real hard to get these reduced. and if you skip a few, they will automagically show up at your door and ask "have you taken your pills?" if you say "yeah" then they say "can be take a blood sample?". if you refuse, theyll take you in again and youll get the same treatment.
if youre not a smoker you have to be it. youll never ever be let out otherwise.
anyway, karmic loop repeating. figured vlogging would be easy. and i did this years ago? and i surfed the same sites? wow. pathetic.
still cant get out of it. fucking hate this.
and yeah, i only met julia and bella because they wanted me to.
a khazar and italian mafia. wow. a lot of imagination there.
fucking hate all of this. and obviously talking about porn is fucking stupid.
and yeah. my OCD is huge again. so even if you escape all psychiatric staff.
uhm. i guess you should just do art music poetry for years. shun society.
its just fucking hopeless.
except i made a lot of stuff. met ida bella julia because of it.
but. uhm. now. what is there left?
i figured i should quit bitchute. but i still went back.
fuck. fuck fuck.
and i obviously cant talk tracey for comfort. and not lady K.
go back to crying in your car tracey. you dont deserve empathy.
because you have none yourself.
anyway. writing this all for years. why?
anyway, you cant get out of the psychiatric system. like i said. a single pill of 1mg can do wonders. but when they lock you in a mental ward for weeks or months, and punish you for whatever reason they want. then stock you full of more and more pills. and its real hard to get these reduced. and if you skip a few, they will automagically show up at your door and ask "have you taken your pills?" if you say "yeah" then they say "can be take a blood sample?". if you refuse, theyll take you in again and youll get the same treatment.
if youre not a smoker you have to be it. youll never ever be let out otherwise.
anyway, karmic loop repeating. figured vlogging would be easy. and i did this years ago? and i surfed the same sites? wow. pathetic.
still cant get out of it. fucking hate this.
and yeah, i only met julia and bella because they wanted me to.
a khazar and italian mafia. wow. a lot of imagination there.
fucking hate all of this. and obviously talking about porn is fucking stupid.
and yeah. my OCD is huge again. so even if you escape all psychiatric staff.
uhm. i guess you should just do art music poetry for years. shun society.
its just fucking hopeless.
except i made a lot of stuff. met ida bella julia because of it.
but. uhm. now. what is there left?
i figured i should quit bitchute. but i still went back.
fuck. fuck fuck.
and i obviously cant talk tracey for comfort. and not lady K.
go back to crying in your car tracey. you dont deserve empathy.
because you have none yourself.
anyway. writing this all for years. why?
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Sep. 25th, 2024 04:35 pmok. worked too hard. im seeing spirits in the middle of a sunny day. got this weird 5D plopping sound. uh. have to relax. i guess. anyway, if you add me whenever that would be nice. but you post the same things on livejournal so it doesnt really matter. im not lonely anymore. im free from vampire entities. i prefer just lying still in bed and thinking for a long time.
found this chick, who at like 50 years old, was "here and now" for the first time. you have to tell people just to fucking lie and bed and think for a moment for the first time ever? this isnt rocket science.
"silence is a true friend who never betrays"
anyway. älskar min bella. julia älskar sin hampus. ive never actually been jealous of people. maybe in my 30s. but i went beyond that. i adore people who are better than me.
"the man of wisdom takes the good things out of the superior man, and the inferior things out of the stupid man, and removes them from himself"
anyway. the psychiatric system is a joke. yes neuroleptics do work. but they give way too high doses. even 1mg is too high. like if youre really out there a strong fucking pill can save you from hell on earth. but 2 times per day for decades? and injections too? and you end up with 20 pills per day? and they dont even make much money from it.
oh. right. spirit. im fucked.
anyway. dont fucking with the spirit world. they will creep you out beyond belief. you can die in 1/100 sec from fear. i remember saying that to julia and she laughed her ass off. anyway, recording yourself is the perfect healing method. just wish it didnt make spirits invade you.
anyway. love my bella. was so medicated that my heart stopped so it couldnt beat for her. but love her more than anything ever. thats the only point of life. dedication. not to an abstract diety. but to your twin flame. and new age has just turned into a hoax. no one ive met online has been for real. and then they train others in their lies? when will it end?
anyway. crossposting is over. and i remember. even back in the days flirting online or IRL never really got me anything either. like now i literally get adrenaline rushes. still no point. but when i saw miss lichii again the rush was so strong it felt like love.
anyway. healing frequencies can do that too. people are overrated.
"you go to heaven for the weather
and hell for the company"
anyway, when i wasnt awake much. i did have amazing dreams. and woke up in a great mood. then i went to bed 5 mins later. anyway. nothing compares to a good dream. no drugs in the world. no 150 inch smartscreen. no gadgets. no likes. no fame. no screaming audience.
so. i have focus again. except i annoyed the spirits. theres one on the right. its creeping me out lol.
anyway. i hope youre alright tracey =***) you live in an amazing place. cant you make like chris or effie take a picture of you when youre hugging a redwood? would be cool. all latinas love trees. see them as thair parents. so i was walking with sonja to this cafe. we passed by what looked like a quite old tree. she put her hand on it. i was well. and i could feel good energies coursing through my body.
so much has been lost nowadays. theres really nothing left. if agenda2030 kills 95% of the population i have no problem with that. oh black white spirit. omg. anyway. should rest. or get more food. need more food. lotz.
found this chick, who at like 50 years old, was "here and now" for the first time. you have to tell people just to fucking lie and bed and think for a moment for the first time ever? this isnt rocket science.
"silence is a true friend who never betrays"
anyway. älskar min bella. julia älskar sin hampus. ive never actually been jealous of people. maybe in my 30s. but i went beyond that. i adore people who are better than me.
"the man of wisdom takes the good things out of the superior man, and the inferior things out of the stupid man, and removes them from himself"
anyway. the psychiatric system is a joke. yes neuroleptics do work. but they give way too high doses. even 1mg is too high. like if youre really out there a strong fucking pill can save you from hell on earth. but 2 times per day for decades? and injections too? and you end up with 20 pills per day? and they dont even make much money from it.
oh. right. spirit. im fucked.
anyway. dont fucking with the spirit world. they will creep you out beyond belief. you can die in 1/100 sec from fear. i remember saying that to julia and she laughed her ass off. anyway, recording yourself is the perfect healing method. just wish it didnt make spirits invade you.
anyway. love my bella. was so medicated that my heart stopped so it couldnt beat for her. but love her more than anything ever. thats the only point of life. dedication. not to an abstract diety. but to your twin flame. and new age has just turned into a hoax. no one ive met online has been for real. and then they train others in their lies? when will it end?
anyway. crossposting is over. and i remember. even back in the days flirting online or IRL never really got me anything either. like now i literally get adrenaline rushes. still no point. but when i saw miss lichii again the rush was so strong it felt like love.
anyway. healing frequencies can do that too. people are overrated.
"you go to heaven for the weather
and hell for the company"
anyway, when i wasnt awake much. i did have amazing dreams. and woke up in a great mood. then i went to bed 5 mins later. anyway. nothing compares to a good dream. no drugs in the world. no 150 inch smartscreen. no gadgets. no likes. no fame. no screaming audience.
so. i have focus again. except i annoyed the spirits. theres one on the right. its creeping me out lol.
anyway. i hope youre alright tracey =***) you live in an amazing place. cant you make like chris or effie take a picture of you when youre hugging a redwood? would be cool. all latinas love trees. see them as thair parents. so i was walking with sonja to this cafe. we passed by what looked like a quite old tree. she put her hand on it. i was well. and i could feel good energies coursing through my body.
so much has been lost nowadays. theres really nothing left. if agenda2030 kills 95% of the population i have no problem with that. oh black white spirit. omg. anyway. should rest. or get more food. need more food. lotz.
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Sep. 25th, 2024 12:51 pmso
in the coma
in the beginning
only have faint memories of this
but life was 2d
and if i did the right thing
life would fold out to 3 dimensions
later
at some other place
the door to the staff was open
some alien mummy corpse was on the desk
on 3 monitors was some old ultima game?
and this old game, no idea how to find it
you were gonna find some old ancient irish wisdom
but you needed to pay with old sorts of money
and i told her "you changed my life"
she laughed and said like "ive done this 250s times"
anyway, seemingly have a boner constantly
i dont care
if i jack off
i get some infection on my big toes?
i know
its like ironic and dumb
oh, lurker lounge
they were trying to be so strict and nice
except they linked this thing where they were annoyed by someone
i found it on waybackmachine
the writing was so bad i couldnt bother reading it all
they didnt allow the word "fuck" there
but what was the most used word in it?
"fuckwit"
they also got outraged if you said hard core instead of hard-core
obviously means something completely different
and i quit diablo II
because i tried to mod it
never released
do i have to remake that too?
wow...
anyway, got the phrozen forums
when i checked i had like 500 posts there
no idea what i talked about
anyway, i read their terms of service
i was naive then
so i tried to quote it and mention parts that made no sense
it didnt allow me to post it
so i linked a copy
i got heavily trolled
then some dude happened to come back
which got the same treatment before
told me about corruption and stuff
then i started with... ultima online?
quake II gloom?
my first experience of power abuse
found timothy learys
"how to operate your brain"
it was low rez
and heavily compressed
nice colours but quick flashing
dont really like that
and even back then i
just couldnt stand vids
anyway, that old internet wisdom still plays true
"dont feed the trolls"
"if you argue with an idiot
they will drag you down to their level
and beat you with experience"
no matter how long you think
no matter how clever it is
no matter how satiric it is
anyway, should make a new account on miss poetry site
remember tracey, which i guess you hold true
because you know all this
never ever delete anything
you will have to relive those days
until you write the exact same thing
for hours
i also had like 20-30-40 notebooks
also wrote tons of ideas
and quotes
and things on them
1000s
all gone
so, my dad
greatest dad ever
a true hero
so when he wasnt working
to support me
which was really only about
teaching me a lesson
which obviously didnt work
so it backfired
and seemingly
if you work hard
and give it all to your kids
you get good karma
oh this one
he started saying some time
"like stephen hawking such a sad man nobody understood him"
well, id seen a documentary
read the wiki article about him
was never like that
when he started losing his sense of speech
he got interpreters
anyway, he was talking about me
...i understood that now
he couldnt say
"i was a shit parent"
that would put him in guilt
and shaitan would punish him
he also started insulting me
and complimenting me at the same time
of course, another karma trick
right, anxiety
does it have to be as bad as before?
eating huge amounts of junkfood
and chocolate and mince and cheeze
and fucking LÄTTA with zero taste
and KETCHUP
and having a dirty
smelly methane filled room?
wont happen of course
so, last psyk visit
people were sweet for a short time
instead of me just entertaining them
"du kommer inte va förstoppad för alltid"
bella said a similar thing
via telepathy
so it will get better
some time
dunno when
2082? long way to go...
and if i write something truthful
on mister poetry site
it just gets deleted?
like i did this thing about
"racial colour theory"
i got a troll quickly saying
"rasist"
uhm, when i look now
the post is deleted
wtf was that about?
it wasnt controversial or anything?
and youtube posts too
and dissing immortal technique?
uh... wow...
and the format deep data / LLM processing is stored at
is called a .JSON file
hmm, ring any bells?
anyway, i never liked ranting and asking for help here
barely got any response to it
and now i have to remake everything?
why?
and i didnt like posting quotes or poetry
almost no response
"att skrika på hjälp
där ingen finns eller hör"
anyway, this isnt true limbo
its a curse
i know whos doing it
alll these years
and i saw everything clearly
all connections to everything
how everythings connected
i was this pissed off before?
why?
no drugs
just infinite loneliness
in the coma
in the beginning
only have faint memories of this
but life was 2d
and if i did the right thing
life would fold out to 3 dimensions
later
at some other place
the door to the staff was open
some alien mummy corpse was on the desk
on 3 monitors was some old ultima game?
and this old game, no idea how to find it
you were gonna find some old ancient irish wisdom
but you needed to pay with old sorts of money
and i told her "you changed my life"
she laughed and said like "ive done this 250s times"
anyway, seemingly have a boner constantly
i dont care
if i jack off
i get some infection on my big toes?
i know
its like ironic and dumb
oh, lurker lounge
they were trying to be so strict and nice
except they linked this thing where they were annoyed by someone
i found it on waybackmachine
the writing was so bad i couldnt bother reading it all
they didnt allow the word "fuck" there
but what was the most used word in it?
"fuckwit"
they also got outraged if you said hard core instead of hard-core
obviously means something completely different
and i quit diablo II
because i tried to mod it
never released
do i have to remake that too?
wow...
anyway, got the phrozen forums
when i checked i had like 500 posts there
no idea what i talked about
anyway, i read their terms of service
i was naive then
so i tried to quote it and mention parts that made no sense
it didnt allow me to post it
so i linked a copy
i got heavily trolled
then some dude happened to come back
which got the same treatment before
told me about corruption and stuff
then i started with... ultima online?
quake II gloom?
my first experience of power abuse
found timothy learys
"how to operate your brain"
it was low rez
and heavily compressed
nice colours but quick flashing
dont really like that
and even back then i
just couldnt stand vids
anyway, that old internet wisdom still plays true
"dont feed the trolls"
"if you argue with an idiot
they will drag you down to their level
and beat you with experience"
no matter how long you think
no matter how clever it is
no matter how satiric it is
anyway, should make a new account on miss poetry site
remember tracey, which i guess you hold true
because you know all this
never ever delete anything
you will have to relive those days
until you write the exact same thing
for hours
i also had like 20-30-40 notebooks
also wrote tons of ideas
and quotes
and things on them
1000s
all gone
so, my dad
greatest dad ever
a true hero
so when he wasnt working
to support me
which was really only about
teaching me a lesson
which obviously didnt work
so it backfired
and seemingly
if you work hard
and give it all to your kids
you get good karma
oh this one
he started saying some time
"like stephen hawking such a sad man nobody understood him"
well, id seen a documentary
read the wiki article about him
was never like that
when he started losing his sense of speech
he got interpreters
anyway, he was talking about me
...i understood that now
he couldnt say
"i was a shit parent"
that would put him in guilt
and shaitan would punish him
he also started insulting me
and complimenting me at the same time
of course, another karma trick
right, anxiety
does it have to be as bad as before?
eating huge amounts of junkfood
and chocolate and mince and cheeze
and fucking LÄTTA with zero taste
and KETCHUP
and having a dirty
smelly methane filled room?
wont happen of course
so, last psyk visit
people were sweet for a short time
instead of me just entertaining them
"du kommer inte va förstoppad för alltid"
bella said a similar thing
via telepathy
so it will get better
some time
dunno when
2082? long way to go...
and if i write something truthful
on mister poetry site
it just gets deleted?
like i did this thing about
"racial colour theory"
i got a troll quickly saying
"rasist"
uhm, when i look now
the post is deleted
wtf was that about?
it wasnt controversial or anything?
and youtube posts too
and dissing immortal technique?
uh... wow...
and the format deep data / LLM processing is stored at
is called a .JSON file
hmm, ring any bells?
anyway, i never liked ranting and asking for help here
barely got any response to it
and now i have to remake everything?
why?
and i didnt like posting quotes or poetry
almost no response
"att skrika på hjälp
där ingen finns eller hör"
anyway, this isnt true limbo
its a curse
i know whos doing it
alll these years
and i saw everything clearly
all connections to everything
how everythings connected
i was this pissed off before?
why?
no drugs
just infinite loneliness
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Sep. 25th, 2024 12:11 pmso the bitterfitta herself was here. you know who. i hadnt had despair, and she didnt have a cold. so thats quite odd.
anyway, as i figured, she ruined my only good day in ages.
to "restore" me.
and she acted like a whore of course.
and fucking black clothes on women, whats the fucking point?
you dont see anything. and fat ugly fucks think they look good in it?
like lipgloss? wtf? no one notices any fucking difference and you fucking ruin your body with it.
"i wont come for a long time"
anyway. just a lie. she brought chocolate. it tasted like shit.
zero empathy ever.
if it goes over a certain threshold
shell "save me"
and shaitan will say
"thats a good girl"
and if everyone fucking everywhere uses fucking clothes
how can you stand out? how can anyone be attracted to you?
see you among the other ugly as fuck clones?
so she said something about someone looking like an anorexia case.
so i asked how much she weighted when she was 17
"i dont remember"
rrright.
as for seeing through lies. no fucking point.
at the previous housing i also told the staff she wasnt welcome.
well she whored herself to one
and wouldnt you know
"we cant stop her from coming here"
anyway, you have chris now and thats amazing
ill never get anything like that
anyway
african women never ever shower
they use vaseline and talcum powder
and if you drink a lot
im talking 100s of cubic litres of alcohol
your lymph system dies completely
then you take radiactive iodine to seal the deal
anyway you noticed tracey that the other second
i was calm and wise as hell
this could not be tolerated
anyway
shell only accept me
as her artwhoreslave and entertainer
she never ever listens to my advice
like once shed been drinking onts
of rum and coke
ruined her stomache
so what does she do?
whines for weeks
THERES A GRAIN OF RICE STUCK IN MY THROAT
so i give her lots of advice
like stop with alcohol and coffee
she just ignores everything
finally she sees a doctor
the response?
"cut back on coffee"
she never said i was right or anything
but like any reptile
she loves me talking shit about her
more loosh
anyway
i feel sad for those people
that have never ever gone through a tragedy
where they have to fight to survive
the right wing actually made it better for me
i was gonna be forced to get a job already
in 2012? id rather die
since no one gave a fuck about my art
before suicide
i figured i should make something lasting
so i made the darkhalo fansite
was nice
then when i met bella i fucking deleted the whole thing
wow, great
as for roy orbison
he died in his moms arms
awww that complete fucking loser
some other trash guy
remember hearing him screaming at his mom
on the bus
he had fucking disgusting teeth
obviously never gotten laid
or felt love
or had to fight to survive
and fountain house didnt help
but when i started at myrorna
i got anxiety after 5 mins
next time 15 mins
and then the niiice psychiatric
reduced my pills over and over
awww, how nice, how emphatic of him
right. who gives a fuck.
right. i wrote the exact same thing before.
constant deja vu.
as for my few days of joy
since i just met psychiatric and somatic staff
...nothing good came out of it
they just smiled at me and said nothing
and laughed at the right word
which means something
really nasty in slang
as for the woman formerly known as wonderwoman
shes got shit for brains
she said the sweetest one here is the antichrist
nothing could be further from the truth
shes got power over her, thats it
and the most beautiful?
that michelin cunt who hasnt exercised a single day in her life
and smells like fart all over the place or pink fucking slime
wow
get your priorities straight, cunt
so the object now is to never delete anything
highest key
and obviously not get banned
and get things deleted
all my old comments on devart are still there
they cleared the art, ok
but my journals were fucking EPIC
added bits and pieces to em allll the time
gone gone gone
so, yes, in constant deja vu
and 10k journal entries?
reliving every day when they were written?
oh. my. god.
most of them i wrote at my parents place
so am i supposed to have the same despair there
where i eventually wrote my fucking will?
anyway, im dead
i died
i am in limbo
so yes the withdrawal symptoms
from stopping with neuroleptics
is worse than fentanyl
so i released all my vampire entities
this is the reward
im free from karma
free from desire
tracey used to write "repost"
she doesnt do that anymore
shes not congizent
because shes not there
shes not a bot either
anyway
groundhog day isnt like they say it is
you dont have to perfect whatever
to meet your dream princess
and crossposting
hate it
and i guess i should mirror everything on mister poetry site
so was gonna ask lady K miss economy fred lane darkhalo
to fix me my deep data profile
it would be so easy
freed from desire
and anyway
no matter how fucked up things i write
i shouldnt delete em
then the same thing happens again
oh, and miss demokratipiloterna
they had amazing saturday music nights
theres so much of life ive missed
sara loves concerts
and books
and movies
except when i was at her place
we watched some neat movie
shed found
... her only emotion in watching it
was laughing at the appropriate moments
thats it
anyway, its more than 10k bloglings
and days that need to be remade
and relived
there were shit ton of comments too
oh my.
anyway
i transcended
im in heaven
almost
i havent heard about anyone
talking about it being like this
and its just a punishment
a curse
and as for miss fattest fuck on earth
right
forgot
awesome
anyway
it was nice in kristianstad
met no one so had more time for art
but all those book projects are gone
theyre all in my deep data profile
anyway, as i figured, she ruined my only good day in ages.
to "restore" me.
and she acted like a whore of course.
and fucking black clothes on women, whats the fucking point?
you dont see anything. and fat ugly fucks think they look good in it?
like lipgloss? wtf? no one notices any fucking difference and you fucking ruin your body with it.
"i wont come for a long time"
anyway. just a lie. she brought chocolate. it tasted like shit.
zero empathy ever.
if it goes over a certain threshold
shell "save me"
and shaitan will say
"thats a good girl"
and if everyone fucking everywhere uses fucking clothes
how can you stand out? how can anyone be attracted to you?
see you among the other ugly as fuck clones?
so she said something about someone looking like an anorexia case.
so i asked how much she weighted when she was 17
"i dont remember"
rrright.
as for seeing through lies. no fucking point.
at the previous housing i also told the staff she wasnt welcome.
well she whored herself to one
and wouldnt you know
"we cant stop her from coming here"
anyway, you have chris now and thats amazing
ill never get anything like that
anyway
african women never ever shower
they use vaseline and talcum powder
and if you drink a lot
im talking 100s of cubic litres of alcohol
your lymph system dies completely
then you take radiactive iodine to seal the deal
anyway you noticed tracey that the other second
i was calm and wise as hell
this could not be tolerated
anyway
shell only accept me
as her artwhoreslave and entertainer
she never ever listens to my advice
like once shed been drinking onts
of rum and coke
ruined her stomache
so what does she do?
whines for weeks
THERES A GRAIN OF RICE STUCK IN MY THROAT
so i give her lots of advice
like stop with alcohol and coffee
she just ignores everything
finally she sees a doctor
the response?
"cut back on coffee"
she never said i was right or anything
but like any reptile
she loves me talking shit about her
more loosh
anyway
i feel sad for those people
that have never ever gone through a tragedy
where they have to fight to survive
the right wing actually made it better for me
i was gonna be forced to get a job already
in 2012? id rather die
since no one gave a fuck about my art
before suicide
i figured i should make something lasting
so i made the darkhalo fansite
was nice
then when i met bella i fucking deleted the whole thing
wow, great
as for roy orbison
he died in his moms arms
awww that complete fucking loser
some other trash guy
remember hearing him screaming at his mom
on the bus
he had fucking disgusting teeth
obviously never gotten laid
or felt love
or had to fight to survive
and fountain house didnt help
but when i started at myrorna
i got anxiety after 5 mins
next time 15 mins
and then the niiice psychiatric
reduced my pills over and over
awww, how nice, how emphatic of him
right. who gives a fuck.
right. i wrote the exact same thing before.
constant deja vu.
as for my few days of joy
since i just met psychiatric and somatic staff
...nothing good came out of it
they just smiled at me and said nothing
and laughed at the right word
which means something
really nasty in slang
as for the woman formerly known as wonderwoman
shes got shit for brains
she said the sweetest one here is the antichrist
nothing could be further from the truth
shes got power over her, thats it
and the most beautiful?
that michelin cunt who hasnt exercised a single day in her life
and smells like fart all over the place or pink fucking slime
wow
get your priorities straight, cunt
so the object now is to never delete anything
highest key
and obviously not get banned
and get things deleted
all my old comments on devart are still there
they cleared the art, ok
but my journals were fucking EPIC
added bits and pieces to em allll the time
gone gone gone
so, yes, in constant deja vu
and 10k journal entries?
reliving every day when they were written?
oh. my. god.
most of them i wrote at my parents place
so am i supposed to have the same despair there
where i eventually wrote my fucking will?
anyway, im dead
i died
i am in limbo
so yes the withdrawal symptoms
from stopping with neuroleptics
is worse than fentanyl
so i released all my vampire entities
this is the reward
im free from karma
free from desire
tracey used to write "repost"
she doesnt do that anymore
shes not congizent
because shes not there
shes not a bot either
anyway
groundhog day isnt like they say it is
you dont have to perfect whatever
to meet your dream princess
and crossposting
hate it
and i guess i should mirror everything on mister poetry site
so was gonna ask lady K miss economy fred lane darkhalo
to fix me my deep data profile
it would be so easy
freed from desire
and anyway
no matter how fucked up things i write
i shouldnt delete em
then the same thing happens again
oh, and miss demokratipiloterna
they had amazing saturday music nights
theres so much of life ive missed
sara loves concerts
and books
and movies
except when i was at her place
we watched some neat movie
shed found
... her only emotion in watching it
was laughing at the appropriate moments
thats it
anyway, its more than 10k bloglings
and days that need to be remade
and relived
there were shit ton of comments too
oh my.
anyway
i transcended
im in heaven
almost
i havent heard about anyone
talking about it being like this
and its just a punishment
a curse
and as for miss fattest fuck on earth
right
forgot
awesome
anyway
it was nice in kristianstad
met no one so had more time for art
but all those book projects are gone
theyre all in my deep data profile
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Sep. 24th, 2024 08:20 pmonly comment part. available on https://old.bitchute.com/video/Ad2Wc4AM2J0o/ and some more vids from that day.
so. its all bots on bitchute. and has been all my life. the only one which seemed different was bella. she was just a high tech android though. and my only best friend was called christian. so when i lost him i was never supposed to diverge from christianity. this psyop never worked on me though. i just realized the extreme stupidty of it eventually. so its sloppy copy+paste annunaki mind control. and i also noticed that when i get on a new site / with a new account, i meet 1 new person, who seems amazing, cares for me, and for starhawthorne here, she even wanted to move to me. when i got her email it got strange though. she said "i will remove the nanochip from you". cant remember the exact wording, but it alluded to drinking my blood. and she called one of her sons "mason" which was more of a telltale sign. anyway, she liked drinking the blood of especially teenage lesbian women. there was also another psyop with her. she removed her posts constantly, to cover her tracks. "be careful what you say online". she doesnt seem to know that in sweden for example theres a program called URKUND which searches through everything ever transmitted online, surely also anything thats ever been on a computer. the spying on computers nowadays is unhinged. i remember finding a usrobotics.log back in nullties, which had exact transcript of everything id written that day. except, i got an ADSL connection in 1997, so its been going on for a long time. and nothing seemed to happen then, so i didnt care. except one day lifelessexuberance whined about all the chavs in england. i checked the definition on urbandictionary and laughed my ass off. i saved the most interesting ones in chav.txt, but the next day when i woke up, the txt was gone. i did meet a chav eventually, 2018 maybe. and as usual, i got her amazed, she pretended like nothing. the second time she was completely changed. didnt acknowledge my existance, and whined about her "spasming" arm and leg. i was gonna say its because she sits down in awkward position on uncomfortable chairs. didnt though. soon enough it got worse, i got chav OCD, and before i left she yelled "FIST HIM". so obviously if that hadnt happened back in the days shed been alright and wed live happily forever. but as my life has unfolded, this hasnt happened and will never happen.
anyway, enough writing, my throat started hurting when i said too much truth. will mirror on svenskadikter. and . right. automagically tired. its 20:15 and has been dark for 45 mins. gnight. right. so when i got on a laptop again, the OCD was rampant like before. i was not allowed to say any truther things at all and not even mention anyone. so the politically correct mind control is omnipresent. im sure tomorrow or as soon as i get anxiety i will go into a delete frenzy. this has been planned. so i wont be able to create anything more ever again. like a guy said "i came too close to the truth". so got anxiety a few secs after i started up foobar2000. endof5k.
so. its all bots on bitchute. and has been all my life. the only one which seemed different was bella. she was just a high tech android though. and my only best friend was called christian. so when i lost him i was never supposed to diverge from christianity. this psyop never worked on me though. i just realized the extreme stupidty of it eventually. so its sloppy copy+paste annunaki mind control. and i also noticed that when i get on a new site / with a new account, i meet 1 new person, who seems amazing, cares for me, and for starhawthorne here, she even wanted to move to me. when i got her email it got strange though. she said "i will remove the nanochip from you". cant remember the exact wording, but it alluded to drinking my blood. and she called one of her sons "mason" which was more of a telltale sign. anyway, she liked drinking the blood of especially teenage lesbian women. there was also another psyop with her. she removed her posts constantly, to cover her tracks. "be careful what you say online". she doesnt seem to know that in sweden for example theres a program called URKUND which searches through everything ever transmitted online, surely also anything thats ever been on a computer. the spying on computers nowadays is unhinged. i remember finding a usrobotics.log back in nullties, which had exact transcript of everything id written that day. except, i got an ADSL connection in 1997, so its been going on for a long time. and nothing seemed to happen then, so i didnt care. except one day lifelessexuberance whined about all the chavs in england. i checked the definition on urbandictionary and laughed my ass off. i saved the most interesting ones in chav.txt, but the next day when i woke up, the txt was gone. i did meet a chav eventually, 2018 maybe. and as usual, i got her amazed, she pretended like nothing. the second time she was completely changed. didnt acknowledge my existance, and whined about her "spasming" arm and leg. i was gonna say its because she sits down in awkward position on uncomfortable chairs. didnt though. soon enough it got worse, i got chav OCD, and before i left she yelled "FIST HIM". so obviously if that hadnt happened back in the days shed been alright and wed live happily forever. but as my life has unfolded, this hasnt happened and will never happen.
anyway, enough writing, my throat started hurting when i said too much truth. will mirror on svenskadikter. and . right. automagically tired. its 20:15 and has been dark for 45 mins. gnight. right. so when i got on a laptop again, the OCD was rampant like before. i was not allowed to say any truther things at all and not even mention anyone. so the politically correct mind control is omnipresent. im sure tomorrow or as soon as i get anxiety i will go into a delete frenzy. this has been planned. so i wont be able to create anything more ever again. like a guy said "i came too close to the truth". so got anxiety a few secs after i started up foobar2000. endof5k.
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Sep. 24th, 2024 06:06 pmso. who cares. will make everything public. and you cant see your pics at all when logged out on dreamwidth? what a coincidence.
so. neuroleptics contain aborted fetal tissue.
they turn you into a newborn.
you can say things but are punished by this.
you remember everything from your past and are clairevoyant and have lots of superpowers.
the vaccine i got was at 9 months. is probably some development stage there when you start to talk.
at 1 years you get a dogtag, mine is AA-83. the psychiatric system stole this from me. you can order it online, but with how many people are controlling me ill never get it.
so im really born in 1982.
and thus there isnt any supernatural force resetting you when youre reborn.
its all vaccines. since the 1820s when they started with morse code and building out electrical wires.
electricity gives you immortality and superpowers.
only the annunaki are allowed that, obviously.
AA means amorphous adrogenous.
what is A blood type?
"Blood Type A: People with type A blood are often perceived as clever, passionate, sensitive, and cooperative. They typically have a patient temperament and are loyal and peace-loving. However, they might also be overly sensitive and cautious, adhering strictly to societal norms and etiquette."
right. a lie. it is said most native north americans have A. right, O.
"Blood type O: People with O blood type are often considered outgoing, optimistic, and daring. They are seen as natural leaders with high standards for themselves. While they are generally confident and resilient, they can easily be perceived as jealous, insensitive, or arrogant."
natural leaders. so everyone is born like that. its the vaccine type which turns you into a "modern" human.
through anxiety. thus newborns cry. they dont do this because they need feeding.
androids obviously have no need for food.
this is related to rape culture.
when checking out cholera. its normally "only" 2-3 weeks.
so i had it for 2 years.
or was mindcontrolled / programmed for 1 year.
when i got into psyket in 2006. the first place was m77.
it was ground level. thus there are 2 basement levels as well.
when they were gonna do surgery on my back 2015, i seemed to get lower than this, 3-4 lowers.
the ceiling was low, and i remembered the wallpaper from when i was newborn.
.
so. really important. a truther before mentioned that when you die in a hospital, they take you to the basement levels to do unimaginable things. the ground level is 70-79, and goes down to 99 obviously. except, when getting back surgery, i seemed to go 3-4 levels deep. i remembered the wallpaper (well, it was in the ceiling) from when i was newborn. check your dogtag. mine says AA-83. except these are given to your parents 1 year after you are born, and my official birthdate is 1 year later. so they spend an entire year mind controlling / programming / doing tests on you. there is no bloodtype AA, officially. on the back it says "do not carve in your bloodtype, it can prove fatal". AA really means amorphous androgenous. the most common blood type of north americans is O, which is why they were eradicated. it turns you into a natural leader. the annunaki would never allow that. further, i was cleaned with ethanol quickly after i was born. to make you an alcohol addict directly. i didnt like this though, and shunned alcohol for a large portion of my life. yes, flat earth is true, starsigns are a lie. i saw the ultimate truth once. everyone was either a grey or a reptile. cant really tell them apart. i asked a guy about this later in the day when he mentioned "so many reptiles in here", he replied to what i was with "i dont know". i shift quickly. in a mental ward recently a staff was staring at me when i fell asleep. they had drugged me with ethanol some hour prior. looking at him when the sky turned dark, he morphed into several alien species. also the talk bubble "eat mind". if youve never been aquitted to a mental ward and not gotten into the psychiatric system and dont take any pills / neuroleptics, youre one of the lucky ones. at low neuroleptic doses (no forced injection, spitting out the pills) things are normal, at even 1mg though i never meet anyone like me anywhere. people seem to be fine, except they all act like psychos, and i can never get a friend nor love. this is the aim of agenda2030. it is soon complete. RSMH said in 2011 that "1/4 have mental illness", last i checked 2018 the number was at 3/4. thus its probably 100% by now, so no one escapes this "treatment".
so. neuroleptics contain aborted fetal tissue.
they turn you into a newborn.
you can say things but are punished by this.
you remember everything from your past and are clairevoyant and have lots of superpowers.
the vaccine i got was at 9 months. is probably some development stage there when you start to talk.
at 1 years you get a dogtag, mine is AA-83. the psychiatric system stole this from me. you can order it online, but with how many people are controlling me ill never get it.
so im really born in 1982.
and thus there isnt any supernatural force resetting you when youre reborn.
its all vaccines. since the 1820s when they started with morse code and building out electrical wires.
electricity gives you immortality and superpowers.
only the annunaki are allowed that, obviously.
AA means amorphous adrogenous.
what is A blood type?
"Blood Type A: People with type A blood are often perceived as clever, passionate, sensitive, and cooperative. They typically have a patient temperament and are loyal and peace-loving. However, they might also be overly sensitive and cautious, adhering strictly to societal norms and etiquette."
right. a lie. it is said most native north americans have A. right, O.
"Blood type O: People with O blood type are often considered outgoing, optimistic, and daring. They are seen as natural leaders with high standards for themselves. While they are generally confident and resilient, they can easily be perceived as jealous, insensitive, or arrogant."
natural leaders. so everyone is born like that. its the vaccine type which turns you into a "modern" human.
through anxiety. thus newborns cry. they dont do this because they need feeding.
androids obviously have no need for food.
this is related to rape culture.
when checking out cholera. its normally "only" 2-3 weeks.
so i had it for 2 years.
or was mindcontrolled / programmed for 1 year.
when i got into psyket in 2006. the first place was m77.
it was ground level. thus there are 2 basement levels as well.
when they were gonna do surgery on my back 2015, i seemed to get lower than this, 3-4 lowers.
the ceiling was low, and i remembered the wallpaper from when i was newborn.
.
so. really important. a truther before mentioned that when you die in a hospital, they take you to the basement levels to do unimaginable things. the ground level is 70-79, and goes down to 99 obviously. except, when getting back surgery, i seemed to go 3-4 levels deep. i remembered the wallpaper (well, it was in the ceiling) from when i was newborn. check your dogtag. mine says AA-83. except these are given to your parents 1 year after you are born, and my official birthdate is 1 year later. so they spend an entire year mind controlling / programming / doing tests on you. there is no bloodtype AA, officially. on the back it says "do not carve in your bloodtype, it can prove fatal". AA really means amorphous androgenous. the most common blood type of north americans is O, which is why they were eradicated. it turns you into a natural leader. the annunaki would never allow that. further, i was cleaned with ethanol quickly after i was born. to make you an alcohol addict directly. i didnt like this though, and shunned alcohol for a large portion of my life. yes, flat earth is true, starsigns are a lie. i saw the ultimate truth once. everyone was either a grey or a reptile. cant really tell them apart. i asked a guy about this later in the day when he mentioned "so many reptiles in here", he replied to what i was with "i dont know". i shift quickly. in a mental ward recently a staff was staring at me when i fell asleep. they had drugged me with ethanol some hour prior. looking at him when the sky turned dark, he morphed into several alien species. also the talk bubble "eat mind". if youve never been aquitted to a mental ward and not gotten into the psychiatric system and dont take any pills / neuroleptics, youre one of the lucky ones. at low neuroleptic doses (no forced injection, spitting out the pills) things are normal, at even 1mg though i never meet anyone like me anywhere. people seem to be fine, except they all act like psychos, and i can never get a friend nor love. this is the aim of agenda2030. it is soon complete. RSMH said in 2011 that "1/4 have mental illness", last i checked 2018 the number was at 3/4. thus its probably 100% by now, so no one escapes this "treatment".
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Aug. 20th, 2022 08:19 pmso. was gonna make a computergame. for those who have imagination and emotions. but its just depressing. i prefer feeling smart with using words. if i use emojis its. well. depressing. so i know sourcecode. great for me. everyone else knew that ages ago. if you win a fight you get someone more difficult. and i just want to be happy. and it has never been about that. so. i have a brotherhood. i didnt realise that until recently. dont talk with opera people. opera is about theatre. dear god. and when i write i see it from another perspective. and i sound like a freak. if i do art or make someone happy. well. im tired of that. sad smiley. anyway. my full social id says everything. and i never got anything of that. i just acquired minimal wiki knowledge and spammed it at people. that has been my modus operandi since. i dont know. too long. and now its too late. i know things. but i dont see the point of it. anyway. there are people who have root access to the internet. to the universe. and they wont give me that info. lol. obviously. anyway im just fulfilling moms wish. and dad fulfilled her wish. im not lonely. just sad. passive aggressiveness is the only way to go. i cant make other people happy anymore so im not happy. my true form is mummy. i know youre not supposed to talk about that. but. hey. then theres also vampire and then zombie. youre not supposed to talk about that either. but. hey. and there are worse things. but the brotherhood protects me. so the only animal i can be is dog or cat. i guess its a popular analogy here. being a spacebear? isnt that the same as spacemummy? i can see my whole life clearly now. and it was just signs. if you analyze it you see the components. so the computergame was gonna be about that. but. no. i can work around 5 hours on a project. then it just stops. as for making books. i had a lot of projects before. now i should make some shitty music that no one cares about. i mean they do. and i affect things. but truth doesnt make you happy. only death does. and there are conciousness states which can kill mummys. so having a world party is fun until ayn shows up. oh. i learned something new. great for me. i am the anology of cinderella here. great for me. and im also death. and other things. if youre happy you dont talk about it. so if i make someone happy they dont say it. obviously. and happiness is a fraud. anyway. x with a line above. not good. i see my future in front of me now. but because of the parasite theres no chance of it happening. you could take a chance. but you only have 1 chance. so. hopeless. you could get high and drunk. but i cant take much. yes there really are people who snort diamonds. strong folks. anyway i made a silly dragon story about that. no one has really said anything about it. but i dont get happy from compliments. just happy from making people happy. and if theres 1 around who attacks me (OH WAIT EVERYONE) i feel like shit automatically. so i home in on people like a tractor beam. doesnt always work. i cant really use mass social media. if i say something it just gets deleted. anyway guys i meet are just a reflection of my dad. nothing else. so people dont experience what i do. i met one. but. uh. she said i was her boyfriend. then we didnt talk more. those imagination emotion people are strange. if you get a judgement from a higher power. what are you gonna do. you could whine about it. but its still there. written in stone. i cannot live i cannot die. that parasite is awesome. anyway miss mom said mine and hers work is gonna be in a museum. whoooooooooooo cares. sad sad smiley. anyway normal people get high and drunk when theyre happy sad anything. i dont have that. but its my fate and its just great. i tried to write a self biography but it just doesnt work. its just embarassing. and i delete everything. except i found a site which is FREE!!!!!!!!!!! except that doesnt exist. i lose no matter how i try. anyway it wasnt said this about oxes. but a+ blood group mentions theyre melodramatic, supersad. so i am that. and thats just it. and everyone speaks in riddles. and i never got anything of it. so i crushed someone. he came back. made art about me. AWESOME. except he has friends and all that. this repeated. A COUPLE OF TIMES. lol. to say the least. daikatana omg such a nice concept !!!!!!!!!!!!!!. etc. it is said INTP with NI dominance means you process things in the background. which is why my life and reality etc is so GOD DAMN BORING. supersupersupersad. so i heard theres 60 to 70 per cent blondes here. it obviously means something else. 666. number of the beast. angels are the problem. they go around being quiet and sad or happy and smiley. and its not about that. so i write and lived things that happened before. even more depressing. because of the parasite i have no self conscience then. me against the world. etc. lalalal allala la. anyway the countess and anti countess fighting over me is fun. the anti shape thought she could get anyone she wanted. well i dont know that. i see whatever the higher power wants to present to me. if people wanna lie and manipulate they do that. its what the world is about. wheeeeeeeeeeee. etc. and if i do live something again. i get. uhm. a couple of bytes of new insight. this is my world. havent met anyone like that. im a fucking joke. anyway my brotherhood is a good one. its trolls and angels. maybe. great combo. when i was skinnier i looked like a warrior. other times i looked like a troll asof now. anyway i could make people happy but again thats not what its about. i could get more tatus but again nothing is good. im like a stranger in an even more strange place. anyway ill post this on the backup site. its not good but nothing is. so. hey. anyway female erotica is just like any other story. its nothing special. mine did do good to 1 person that im aware of. but thats it. oh miss other person, that is, miss 2, got pissed of. well. ok. i am like that. sorry. i was gonna crush the greys. but it had already happened. and i made the same mistakes again. im great. if you fight someone stronger than you. you lose over time. not a good idea. but what is. except drunk and high. a raised x. probably not something good. appropriation. great. so you have 1 of my books. wow i have really succeeded there. raised x ten thousand. quite a lot. anyway i was gonna buy a whore. but shed kill me. or something worse. bla bla bla etc.
