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Sep. 25th, 2024 07:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
vaaaright. so i wrote the same thing years ago. 2022 it seems. and wow. i fixed up my life then? had completely forgotten about all those things.
anyway, you cant get out of the psychiatric system. like i said. a single pill of 1mg can do wonders. but when they lock you in a mental ward for weeks or months, and punish you for whatever reason they want. then stock you full of more and more pills. and its real hard to get these reduced. and if you skip a few, they will automagically show up at your door and ask "have you taken your pills?" if you say "yeah" then they say "can be take a blood sample?". if you refuse, theyll take you in again and youll get the same treatment.
if youre not a smoker you have to be it. youll never ever be let out otherwise.
anyway, karmic loop repeating. figured vlogging would be easy. and i did this years ago? and i surfed the same sites? wow. pathetic.
still cant get out of it. fucking hate this.
and yeah, i only met julia and bella because they wanted me to.
a khazar and italian mafia. wow. a lot of imagination there.
fucking hate all of this. and obviously talking about porn is fucking stupid.
and yeah. my OCD is huge again. so even if you escape all psychiatric staff.
uhm. i guess you should just do art music poetry for years. shun society.
its just fucking hopeless.
except i made a lot of stuff. met ida bella julia because of it.
but. uhm. now. what is there left?
i figured i should quit bitchute. but i still went back.
fuck. fuck fuck.
and i obviously cant talk tracey for comfort. and not lady K.
go back to crying in your car tracey. you dont deserve empathy.
because you have none yourself.
anyway. writing this all for years. why?
anyway, you cant get out of the psychiatric system. like i said. a single pill of 1mg can do wonders. but when they lock you in a mental ward for weeks or months, and punish you for whatever reason they want. then stock you full of more and more pills. and its real hard to get these reduced. and if you skip a few, they will automagically show up at your door and ask "have you taken your pills?" if you say "yeah" then they say "can be take a blood sample?". if you refuse, theyll take you in again and youll get the same treatment.
if youre not a smoker you have to be it. youll never ever be let out otherwise.
anyway, karmic loop repeating. figured vlogging would be easy. and i did this years ago? and i surfed the same sites? wow. pathetic.
still cant get out of it. fucking hate this.
and yeah, i only met julia and bella because they wanted me to.
a khazar and italian mafia. wow. a lot of imagination there.
fucking hate all of this. and obviously talking about porn is fucking stupid.
and yeah. my OCD is huge again. so even if you escape all psychiatric staff.
uhm. i guess you should just do art music poetry for years. shun society.
its just fucking hopeless.
except i made a lot of stuff. met ida bella julia because of it.
but. uhm. now. what is there left?
i figured i should quit bitchute. but i still went back.
fuck. fuck fuck.
and i obviously cant talk tracey for comfort. and not lady K.
go back to crying in your car tracey. you dont deserve empathy.
because you have none yourself.
anyway. writing this all for years. why?
