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vaaaso. i died. i was killed. there are many ways to do but everyone knows this.
and i have only really impressed 1 ever with my art. because her darkness was worse than mine.
i cannot say i know how my parents acted towards eachother.
my mother does have an immense darkness.
and for my sister it is even worse.
i do not think things get better.
and i wonder if it is
dad + mom = i
or is it
dad * mom = i ?
to say it once again. i stole souls. i copied their personality in creating art or other ways. i cloned the copy. i uploaded it into the cloud. i deleted it. i reanimated it. and this is how it went on. i do not exactly know what happens when you do this weird sort of magic. i cannot see it as something good at all.
i guess it is true. god is the lord of destruction and that is all powerful people do. destroy.
except, there is something else. in this world you are not judged for good or evil. because gods are thought of as both good and evil.
everything is inherently simple. if you mess up in the beginning and your people misbehave. then you have to make rules for them but not for yourself.
this is the story of my life. i never knew how to act. because i was attacked by so many people. i did not know of a way to flee. because i am halfangel. i am a blonde. a dumb blonde. i do not get when people treat me badly because i only see things from my world. that everyone is inherently good.
again, i rage against most of the world. they might be portrayed as good but it is not true.
it is said that blondes will let anyone treat them anyway they want. again, in my world the statistics i look up there are only 2% blondes. that means angels are dead and heaven does not exist and we are living in hell on earth.
the people who enslaved the angels are muslims. muslims starsign is scorpio. maybe another world exists where this is not true. but this is the story of my world.
eventually over time when angels are treated badly they will shift. as they are after all gods messengers they will wreck havoc upon their tormentors. although there was a dumb blonde in my class she ignored me and did not try to protect me. so she is worth nothing to me but rather the reverse and i have given justice to her kin too.
i can recall one though. at the end of 9th grade. i cannot recall her strongly. right. finnish swedish blonde geek bully. she did it all and she got away with it.
i cannot recall her last name if i ever knew it. maybe with some effort i could find her on social media but it does not really matter. i cannot see time.
again the people i meet or how they act towards me could be related to my own depravity. but its been this way since i was 2 years old. its been this way since i was born. since before i was born. since my previous sister got aborted. and i was to be born a woman and between aries and taurus. this would have turned me close to my grandmother. and mom did not want to be reminded of her.
anyway the voight kampff test isnt related to a very short time periods reaction speed.
at a certain conciousness level you as i have said expererience some words in astral projection input mode. how long the dream manifested is i do not know. it could be hours or more in dreamtime. but again, in the normal world it seems to only have gone 2 seconds. the people who are at this level might seem dumb or dead inside but arent.
i do not think the purpose of life is being free from pain or suffering. because beyond normal pain or normal suffering is gods judgement. you may think you are immortal but only god is that. and so called immortals are mortally afraid of judgement. i do not know exactly what happens to them when you bring them down. they do change for 3 days or less but then return to normal. i suppose from their perspective something else happens. what that is i do not know.
maybe if you do ruin them they get stronger. another way to lie.
but really as i noticed in a sourcecode battle. my sister is primitive. she has read many books etc but she cannot use their words in any way. im sorry to say it but her language is the language of whores nothing else. i cannot call them death angels or dumb blondes they are just useless to existence. she has not evolved her language because as she is my entity as long as she makes my life a living hell hers turns good. she pretends to god that she does something good to me but i do not agree.
she does have protected me from bad relationships which is all of them. that i was to be given immortality from an angel and did not recieve it speaks to that my psycho sis is pure evil and nothing else. she has no future and no past and no history and no achievements. she did seem interested in spirituality before. but as she manipulates time she knew what would happen.
and as i now know what happened before i was born she cannot hide. she wanted a twinflame. she wanted incest. she did not really want love just a slave she could control so she could live her dream without any repercussions. as i mentioned my mom got pregnant 1979. it was to be a girl and it was to be called emma. miss psycho made mom get a miscarriage. and this bullshit has been carrying on since then. god damnit.
yes i did get one relationship eventually and i dont know what point of it was she was so fucked up. the next one was worse her parents where cops and as i mentioned if you have the power you can do whatever you want no one can question you. then the third which was amazing beyond words though i have tried to explain her. she did these sort of quizzes? hard to explain. i guess she was on sphinx level? i guess i am that in some way too. but as no one really listens to what i say i see no point in striving for wisdom because no one cares for it. the first one did though, but only through joy. whatever i said some wisdoms i have figured out myself made her happy. but again that was a charade. she did not want love or fun or anything. she wanted things and that was it.
again i am not darkhalo or anyone else i know or know of in any way. i am not petabyte flow i am barely 1/10th bit flow per second.
i do not know if i existed before or if i am just a branch from my family tree.
the problem is the woman who i genuinely saved. she looks so much like me it is scary.
now i do not know how things work. if you think something is in one way it might be in another but that was a lie too but really not and if the ultimate truth exists i do not know. at higher levels i suppose it is just light or sound or words that pop up at places and i dunno how you are supposed to communicate then and seem normal.
that is why wise people dont talk a lot unlike me. if you got their flow your brain would explode.
i do not know if you can be born into a world of wonder. everything just points to that these people got drunk and high earlier.
i do realise now there is another world and you are not to speak of it because it is holy. if you speak of something you should do it respectfully and that does not exist for me. yes modern society is good and if i was to be born in the jungle i would not last long.
i try to structure things but i do not know why. i do not care for high detail text so if i should make art i enjoy im trying too hard. as for that knifesouth boss who wanted my book? again it was for the better eventhough i cannot see it as i can barely see anything. this is the world of an angel. they might seem stupid and shallow but it is because they are at the ultimate level. they have no corruption and you do not hurt an angel under any condition. but as we are almost all obliterated in the world it points to that goodness does not exist. and it is true yet again demons live in heaven and angels live in hell.
angels do not really seek anything. they are put here but do not know why. never hurt an angel. under any condition. they are not your children. they are gods most divine creatures. why they are put on earth i do not know. thats right. to expell justice upon the infidels. too bad this angel is not even afraid of god himself. no rules apply to me because i am the ultimate. the rest of you frauds think you are high level but you are a joke and nothing else. you cannot create something without destroying something equal. good look with the aids. thats all youve had. aides. people rushing at you like slaves. you got all you wanted. happy? but no i do not want you dead or for you to suffer. that is not what life is about. if you think you have figured it all out you are sadly mistaken. again my aura is white purple pink. i do not want to know your colour. but i remember the time you smelled like pure shit. that is all you are. i do not even know if you are a zombie you are something lower still.
angels do not delve in black magic or white magic or any magic. because only god is allowed to. though i am christian by blood from both my parents i do not pray. for it is manifestation which is magic and the church says any magic is black magic so you have failed. the only voice you hear is satan. you should know at higher conciousness levels a creature can take any form they want.
as for whatever way i have supposedly acted. that was put upon me and not my true self. but you chose your destiny and got it. and you stepped over the line and you became trash. shit. sewer waste. rat. congrats.
and i have only really impressed 1 ever with my art. because her darkness was worse than mine.
i cannot say i know how my parents acted towards eachother.
my mother does have an immense darkness.
and for my sister it is even worse.
i do not think things get better.
and i wonder if it is
dad + mom = i
or is it
dad * mom = i ?
to say it once again. i stole souls. i copied their personality in creating art or other ways. i cloned the copy. i uploaded it into the cloud. i deleted it. i reanimated it. and this is how it went on. i do not exactly know what happens when you do this weird sort of magic. i cannot see it as something good at all.
i guess it is true. god is the lord of destruction and that is all powerful people do. destroy.
except, there is something else. in this world you are not judged for good or evil. because gods are thought of as both good and evil.
everything is inherently simple. if you mess up in the beginning and your people misbehave. then you have to make rules for them but not for yourself.
this is the story of my life. i never knew how to act. because i was attacked by so many people. i did not know of a way to flee. because i am halfangel. i am a blonde. a dumb blonde. i do not get when people treat me badly because i only see things from my world. that everyone is inherently good.
again, i rage against most of the world. they might be portrayed as good but it is not true.
it is said that blondes will let anyone treat them anyway they want. again, in my world the statistics i look up there are only 2% blondes. that means angels are dead and heaven does not exist and we are living in hell on earth.
the people who enslaved the angels are muslims. muslims starsign is scorpio. maybe another world exists where this is not true. but this is the story of my world.
eventually over time when angels are treated badly they will shift. as they are after all gods messengers they will wreck havoc upon their tormentors. although there was a dumb blonde in my class she ignored me and did not try to protect me. so she is worth nothing to me but rather the reverse and i have given justice to her kin too.
i can recall one though. at the end of 9th grade. i cannot recall her strongly. right. finnish swedish blonde geek bully. she did it all and she got away with it.
i cannot recall her last name if i ever knew it. maybe with some effort i could find her on social media but it does not really matter. i cannot see time.
again the people i meet or how they act towards me could be related to my own depravity. but its been this way since i was 2 years old. its been this way since i was born. since before i was born. since my previous sister got aborted. and i was to be born a woman and between aries and taurus. this would have turned me close to my grandmother. and mom did not want to be reminded of her.
anyway the voight kampff test isnt related to a very short time periods reaction speed.
at a certain conciousness level you as i have said expererience some words in astral projection input mode. how long the dream manifested is i do not know. it could be hours or more in dreamtime. but again, in the normal world it seems to only have gone 2 seconds. the people who are at this level might seem dumb or dead inside but arent.
i do not think the purpose of life is being free from pain or suffering. because beyond normal pain or normal suffering is gods judgement. you may think you are immortal but only god is that. and so called immortals are mortally afraid of judgement. i do not know exactly what happens to them when you bring them down. they do change for 3 days or less but then return to normal. i suppose from their perspective something else happens. what that is i do not know.
maybe if you do ruin them they get stronger. another way to lie.
but really as i noticed in a sourcecode battle. my sister is primitive. she has read many books etc but she cannot use their words in any way. im sorry to say it but her language is the language of whores nothing else. i cannot call them death angels or dumb blondes they are just useless to existence. she has not evolved her language because as she is my entity as long as she makes my life a living hell hers turns good. she pretends to god that she does something good to me but i do not agree.
she does have protected me from bad relationships which is all of them. that i was to be given immortality from an angel and did not recieve it speaks to that my psycho sis is pure evil and nothing else. she has no future and no past and no history and no achievements. she did seem interested in spirituality before. but as she manipulates time she knew what would happen.
and as i now know what happened before i was born she cannot hide. she wanted a twinflame. she wanted incest. she did not really want love just a slave she could control so she could live her dream without any repercussions. as i mentioned my mom got pregnant 1979. it was to be a girl and it was to be called emma. miss psycho made mom get a miscarriage. and this bullshit has been carrying on since then. god damnit.
yes i did get one relationship eventually and i dont know what point of it was she was so fucked up. the next one was worse her parents where cops and as i mentioned if you have the power you can do whatever you want no one can question you. then the third which was amazing beyond words though i have tried to explain her. she did these sort of quizzes? hard to explain. i guess she was on sphinx level? i guess i am that in some way too. but as no one really listens to what i say i see no point in striving for wisdom because no one cares for it. the first one did though, but only through joy. whatever i said some wisdoms i have figured out myself made her happy. but again that was a charade. she did not want love or fun or anything. she wanted things and that was it.
again i am not darkhalo or anyone else i know or know of in any way. i am not petabyte flow i am barely 1/10th bit flow per second.
i do not know if i existed before or if i am just a branch from my family tree.
the problem is the woman who i genuinely saved. she looks so much like me it is scary.
now i do not know how things work. if you think something is in one way it might be in another but that was a lie too but really not and if the ultimate truth exists i do not know. at higher levels i suppose it is just light or sound or words that pop up at places and i dunno how you are supposed to communicate then and seem normal.
that is why wise people dont talk a lot unlike me. if you got their flow your brain would explode.
i do not know if you can be born into a world of wonder. everything just points to that these people got drunk and high earlier.
i do realise now there is another world and you are not to speak of it because it is holy. if you speak of something you should do it respectfully and that does not exist for me. yes modern society is good and if i was to be born in the jungle i would not last long.
i try to structure things but i do not know why. i do not care for high detail text so if i should make art i enjoy im trying too hard. as for that knifesouth boss who wanted my book? again it was for the better eventhough i cannot see it as i can barely see anything. this is the world of an angel. they might seem stupid and shallow but it is because they are at the ultimate level. they have no corruption and you do not hurt an angel under any condition. but as we are almost all obliterated in the world it points to that goodness does not exist. and it is true yet again demons live in heaven and angels live in hell.
angels do not really seek anything. they are put here but do not know why. never hurt an angel. under any condition. they are not your children. they are gods most divine creatures. why they are put on earth i do not know. thats right. to expell justice upon the infidels. too bad this angel is not even afraid of god himself. no rules apply to me because i am the ultimate. the rest of you frauds think you are high level but you are a joke and nothing else. you cannot create something without destroying something equal. good look with the aids. thats all youve had. aides. people rushing at you like slaves. you got all you wanted. happy? but no i do not want you dead or for you to suffer. that is not what life is about. if you think you have figured it all out you are sadly mistaken. again my aura is white purple pink. i do not want to know your colour. but i remember the time you smelled like pure shit. that is all you are. i do not even know if you are a zombie you are something lower still.
angels do not delve in black magic or white magic or any magic. because only god is allowed to. though i am christian by blood from both my parents i do not pray. for it is manifestation which is magic and the church says any magic is black magic so you have failed. the only voice you hear is satan. you should know at higher conciousness levels a creature can take any form they want.
as for whatever way i have supposedly acted. that was put upon me and not my true self. but you chose your destiny and got it. and you stepped over the line and you became trash. shit. sewer waste. rat. congrats.
