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vaaaso. why do i like hiphop?
i...... dont?
but i dont get lyrics of
other genres.
and i dont really care
for the music
part anymore.
i dont like depth.
oxes are evidently
down to earth.
hmm. whatever.
now its sinking again.
no such thing
as realistic.
i used to
"listening to music
while lying in bed"
its difficult to be
miserable when you
dont have emotions.
i used to interupt
people a lot more
before. now i just
say a few things
and they reply
"youre so wise".
well. i never really
get what people mean.
and. i dont mind them.
with how they are.
saras dude once said.
"everyone is different"
he sounded serious about it.
so. i have other sisters?
but i dont know about them
im useless at making shit up.
as for my stories. well. they
were pathetic. someone said
they were brutal. wow. didnt
know it was like that. but im
a guy. guys are supposed to be
brutal. no such thing as a
gentleman. there was a guy.
who didnt have anything private
on facebook. i wondered why.
now i know. i dont know if he was
palestinian or whatever. he moved
back there. he looked happy.
as for things happening. or not?
i dont believe in that. some christian
dude said that whatever happens happens.
maybe the resistance movement is.. a hoax?
and.. i dont believe in the soul. the eternal
soul. is it possible to make things better?
i dont think so. "you have made a difference".
i dont get it. what is the meaning of life?
"i dont know. maybe thats the point.
that we are supposed to search for it"
as for that disgusting smart rapper.
maybe thats the point? you get entertainment.
and you get insights. you cant just spam
people with smartness. its never worked for me
to learn anything. and if its abstract?
that hasnt worked for me. and the meme
culture? they say things its not possible
to say otherwise. you cant just go up to
someone and call them an idiot. thats
not how it works.................. ?
i guess the sheena entity was right.
one compliment one insult one compliment.
they wont know what hit them. hmm.
oh well. what is the meaning of life?
the north americans didnt build anything.
didnt have high tech defence. didnt collect
gold. they knew something. or did they?
makes you wonder. and south america.
maybe that was hell on earth? it still is.
the more things change the more they stay the same.
the vikings were good people. or were they?
its all so confusing. paradoxical. who can you trust?
thanks for putting up with me tracey. for so long.
thanks for giving me a dream. i dont know how its
important. make the world better. i dont know.
its easy to talk. and its all i know.
some days ago. maybe some week. everything was perfect.
but i gulped for more than i could handle.
i was happy at bitchute. but they kept nagging
about elon musk. so i tried twitter.
it was not a good idea. subversiveness.
traps. false prophets.
he who dies with the most toys.
is nonetheless. still dead.
the richer you are. the more enemies you have.
right? so. people think i talk with a university accent.
and that im right wing. they have thought that for a long
time. miss mom said sometime ago "he was your dad after all".
so. the point of being angry? i guess its better to hate
everything. than to say it. mister grosssmart rapper.
he didnt know it. or did he? i dont know.
first it giveth then it taketh away.
well. i like nietzsche. i read some viking aphorisms.
i couldnt..... really relate. so im not norse?
what am i? who am i? (mom + dad) = i........?
is that all there is to it? what is the point?
"i came from the gutter". but. yeah. i never
saw you as that. maybe others did.
so. darkhalo was pissed off at me.
so i started listening to plain liquid drum
and bass. it seems he still thinks i listen
to his music? that was a long time ago.
the 2? latest reviews? i didnt listen to
much at all. i just wanted to. well.
make him happy? bella said that. that
i also heal. with humour. but i wonder.
well. meow? when i was healthy. i didnt
say meow. and then a cat visited me.
its all really confusing. what is the
meaning of life? so. if you have fair skin.
and freckles. and that sorta hair. you know?
you are resistant to painkillers. but what
ive learned. is that im resistant to everything.
we come from khemet. our bloodline is real old.
real real old. i dont know what it means.
each one of us. is meant to rise to gods.
to saviours. to vanquish the false prophets?
how is this related to elephant souls 50
million lives? and why could i listen to
mr grosssmart rapper as background music?
i started with darkhalos. but as the
observer review? was it that one?
its not background music. it tells of
everything. without a word. like you
tracey. heart heart heart. and its
difficult to care about several.
"i dont know the secret to success
but the reason for failure.
is trying to please everyone"
maybe thats not try. they asked
if i think im jesus? i understood
that now. i understand a lot now.
or do i? everything changes
everything changes everything changes
everything everything everything....
i dont think its possible to sell your soul.
since. well. it doesnt.... exist?
so what is our purpose? to build things?
no. to... i dont know. if the universe
is a hoax. it gets even more complicated.
bella was so wonderful. like. i said before.
who would want to be 1 single transistor?
that can only be on or off? well. you know
what? bella wouldnt mind.
i tried to be normal the other day.
the transformation was complete.
stuck in a shell. angry.
not being able to express anything.
but bella wouldnt mind.
or. she would.
i said, before they took me away
"twin flames are stronger
than the psychiatric system".
bella didnt agree. as for other
people? no thanks. just for the fact
that they cant handle me talking
about her. everything else is ok.
but thats just too much. but thats
me. tomac. etc. how does it matter?
matter is the same thing as conciousness.
so. made a new song. it has an actual
meaning. it sounds original. subversive.
but its so logical. subspace.
curses. hidden meanings.
as for people not liking my music.
so what? bella did. maybe?
witch house only seems to be.
well. talentless losers.
anyone can make discordant music.
and im witch house. you get possessed
by a demonic spirit. you emit chaos
energy. and thats it. i had an old
song about that. nobody cares.
as for fame? miss electro should
have died. shes a fraud. a loser.
shes never achieved anything.
but she fooled me. just like
everyone else did.
she removed an early song about
bella. but an even earlier.
was it about her too?
so confusing. other people.
well. get everything. it seems
like that anyway?
i used to like making people happy.
but that was because i was unhappy.
so you cant be yourself.
you can make a difference.
for someone. somehow.
and thats all that matters.
i hope youre ok tracey? sad smiley.
if you miss someone.
and you cant talk to them.
what do you do?
what will happen in the next life?
is there a next life?
does energy exist?
you mean the most to me.
never seek to tell thy love.
love that is spoken of cannot be.
i havent really talked about you.
and you dont talk about me.
well. we started doing that.
at the same time.
im not pretending. but it doesnt
matter anymore. im happy.
as for mister boss wanting
to have a "discussion"?
well. some dude said that....
they invented the psychiatric
system. because the earths
frequency was getting too high.
i dont know if thats good or not.
if venus doesnt exist?
if its all an illusion?
whats the point?
if i critique something.
i find its truth.
if i point out the lies.
like hecate. she is the sun
which turns into the moon
and back again.
it doesnt have to do with darkness.
at all. miss mom said jesus wife
was called lilith? she doesnt talk
a lot. i talk a lot.
if i think of someone. they get
nightmares. but thats before
i got bad thoughts in my head?
or? "it was the computers fault"
what am i? tunguska. 1908.
before. everything was supernatural.
or was it?
as for east asians.
i havent met a lot.
but. wow. so amazing.
its not to do with looks.
because they dont have that.
(everything is relative)
but its possible to appretiate
anything about someone.
i was like that. like my dad.
i am my mom and my dad.
and thats it
?
as for me trying to be different.
well. everyone is like that.
when the sun goes down.
everything turns supernatural.
but i cant really stand outside.
or people.
there were some people on the subway
commute. when all of a sudden said
"omg i can summon heat???????"
and such.
and this is normal.
youre normal half of the time
youre. well. whatever that is.
half of the time.
i have missed out on so much.
but that was the point.
or was it? how can you fight
something. when only you exist?
if you even do that?
what is the difference between truth and lies?
if youre an energy transmuter.
how does that matter?
am i deep? am i wise?
well. i dont really know?
i am just too much.
like living inside the sun.
but is hallow. like me.
like staring into
radioactive stones.
but some people can handle that.
why dont they allow earths frequency to increase?
i am a prophet. a hand in the darkness.
that makes things happen.
i am a god. but i am also a person.
and everyone is like that.
"i can see it" bella said.
so. i was myself before.
i..... fought the power.
i dont know what else.
i met miss star.
and i only get 1 chance.
then it was over.
like mars cats.
they dont like being pets.
giving you advice on what to do.
and all you hear is meow meow
meow meow meow.........?
as for hope? desire? faith?
i dont know. whats the point?
there are no false prophets.
and linux instead of windows?
fuck no. and mac? omg....
as for how people spend their time?
how am i to judge? i dont know them.
i dont know their world. and i wont
(spirit says "you will"). if the world
disappears when i disappear. whats
the point? i used to collect insults
before. thought it was fun. horrible
things said to me. i used to emanate
genuine pride? uh.... so what?
whats the point of pride?
so. impossible is nothing to someone
who tries. well. whats the point?
just be yourself. nothing else matters.
so. when i was healthy. i was male.
now i do something. and forget what
i was doing after a second.
and if someone makes sense to me.
i say it. and i get mocked.
ridiculed. etc. bella wasnt like that.
except, her ma added 2 accounts.
one with bella. one with theresia.
so. i was male. i was respected.
i said supernatural things.
and there really wasnt any problem.
except everything you love will
reject you or die.
i got the urge to see waking life
again. but nothing works if i realize it.
"reality" literally changes. rules.
for things. it still looks the same.
to fool you. ok. lets try. no.
its a trap. ok. whatever.
i dont know what tomorrow holds.
or the next second. i tried saying
to someone, im not like other guys.
she didnt care. and then i wont say
that more. as for my fate? something
difficult to explain. like ive said.
miss mom has a stalker. but she
really doesnt. except after the slaves
were freed. the ottoman empire
still had fairskinned slaves in northern
africa. blonde and orange hair is only
4% of the worlds population.
thats really not a lot.
and it has to be a reason for that.
there are paradoxes beyond paradoxes.
i dont eat souls anymore?
i didnt. since the beginning of the year.
every word is a prayer. speak the truth
do not yield to anger. did i learn
anything at bitchute? i dont know.
its easier to destroy than to build up.
or is it? if you fake an entire world.
its really hard to break out of it.
so. i tried to be logical. truthful.
nietzsche wasnt white or german.
he was an aristocrat. hmm.
i guess i should look up
what that means.
"we use emotion for the many
and reserve reason for the few".
if mind and matter is the same thing.
what are emotions? does the soul exist?
someone mentioned. she got so much trauma.
her soul escaped her screaming body.
this is all really confusing.
she told the flesh "keep your shit together".
sara has occidiangela.
same as one of the julias.
you only get that.
by going through extreme pain.
going through hell and coming
back an angel.
but there are dark angels.
avenging angels.
listen to both sides of a story.
because the truth is somewhere in the middle.
the middle passage.
did i mention that new song?
rich people arent happier than anyone else.
so if a country is poor? so what?
south americans seem to hail pablo escobar
as a hero. this is all really confusing.
as for being disgusting? i dont know.
it comes with the territory?
change your mind and you change your world.
otakus are particular. you cant fool them.
maybe because theyre tired of this world.
the people in it. they may seem fucked up.
but theyre really wise.
long ago. on livejournal.
some dude said
"you can call it
"dont shed on me: an introspective look at morality""
uh..... wow?
then he posted some disgusting drawing hed made.
its all twosided. no. truth isnt disgusting.
but it goes hand it hand.
you can hide it.
but we all lie to ourselves.
no one else.
so. east asians are some perverted freaks.
but theyre also the wisest.
goes hand in hand.
and yugoslavians? uh. wow.
dont get me started.
i am shielded.
from bad.
from good.
maybe i was only supposed to be an artist?
and i didnt realise it?
an empty nobody?
a dead shell?
i dont know?
so. tough people treat their kids toughly.
but not in that way. they have discipline.
they have rules. they dont say them.
dad used to read comics to me.
so id get it.
i dont remember much of it.
i fell asleep quickly.
and he molested me.
great.
but its his peoples way of life.
knifesouth.
as for having beautiful eyes?
i surely dont.
or people see something else in me.
and i abused it.
i cant really tell the difference
between anger sadness joy.
that sure is weird........?
the theory of demonic possession.
as for parents. like you. tracey.
with a job. and friends.
"i cant do this all on my own
im no superman im no superman"
wow. i adore you. you manage to
do so many things. if i do something?
well. great for me. i really dont.
"you have made a difference"
"you have to reach your bottom"
well. why? you could get discipline instead?
listen to your elders. respect them.
or? fuck no. family is the worst thing ever.
so. im 2 minds now. is that good? or bad?
im many many minds. so freckle people.
are. well......? vampires. reptiloids.
its dumb to fight yourself.
but maybe thats the point.
if you fight a monster.
and realize you were fighting yourself.
the monster will disappear.
nietzsche was wrong.
and what is time?
i dont really...... understand it.
hey. why do you need to make diss tracks.
when you can just bitch someone out.
and tear them apart.
like a wolf. and sheep.
"i like my christian neighbors because
theyre christians. nothing else"
"watch out for wants of the body"
so. wellness. yada yada.
it works for others?
or does it?
if we get burnt out.
its a reason for that.
it doesnt have to be bad.
fair skinned are the sweetest.
most caring. well. im not?
and im not norse either.
im a fraud. and thats it.
"hell hath no fury like
a woman scorned.
which is nothing compared
to the sun as a measure
of gods wrath"
when you talk to artists.
they dont talk like humans.
they make art about it.
yes. demonic possession is real.
i dont feel the need to impress
you now tracey. it was real
bothersome before.
and then you abuse my trust?
but ive done that too.
how does all this matter?
i have a lot of spirits in me.
not just 2. i am not 1.
i am more zero.
phase shift.
polarity shift.
my snus is used up.
cant really do 2 things at a time.
i aint fit to live here
i just want to leave the world behind.
bella was the only one.
and thats it.
as for miss x saying i am?
uhm? ok?
how many has she said that to?
if id see her now.
she wouldnt give a fuck.
so she hasnt waited for me.
she doesnt want me.
its all a fraud.
except its not.
the brotherhood isnt happy with me.
she could have saved me from them.
but. she wasnt the one.
true love is magic.
so you do magic.
easy.
no such thing as white or black magic.
its just magic.
"i want you to
listen to me.
my eyes are open".
well. great for me.
im naive.
because im a guy.
best thing since sliced bread?
well. no.
so. i tried the music route again.
bad idea. i tried having "opinions".
i tried to be a "prophet".
i tried to protect an angel.
but theres far worse
demons than me in the world.
i dont really care for ambient
chillout etc anymore.
im not a cat. im a dog.
etc. im tired.
its ok youre ok.
that was sweet.
real real sweet.
so you talk about me?
i dont know hat. sad smiley.
im not special. like that
nonpopular rapper i dissed.
but i wasnt mad at him.
it was christianity.
but it was all a fraud.
and the fraud was me.
there are layers beyond
layers of obfuscation.
there was a ufo researcher.
the men in black visited him.
i guess thats worse than the greys.
and the greens. omg.
chills. eeeeeeeeeeeek.
really not happy smiley.
but i guess the men in black had the chills.
you are exposed. you are the unseen.
but you are also slave to someone.
my dad went up against the rottschilds.
but theyre not called that.
theyre called the cranes.
i cant handle miss mom anymore
but. shes old. for real.
shes on another level.
i cant imagine what shes gone through.
no. it wasnt better before.
not in any way. feminism is good.
women are good. women are complicated.
and guys are good. guys are complicated.
so. we freckle people steal souls.
we arent supposed to have permanent relationships.
or frequency is electricity.
we are worse than the japanese.
and of course. more wise.
more layers.
and most dont even look past the first.
or they see the last in an instant.
im quite convinced that i have snake eyes.
thats what freaks people out. or not.
snake eyes are just cat eyes.
and cats are nice. i like them.
and. uh. i like dragons?
the cia and fbi arent bad.
there are black hats and white hats.
good hackers bad hackers.
but theyre all fighting for something.
you can say a lot with a little.
i never knew that.
well. i did.
so. i made julia pregnant. thats a fact.
but thats over.
if you die it doesnt have to mean youre
a lot soul (keep telling yourself that)
miss stalker just said its safe.
shes forgiven me. maybe?
the police doesnt believe her.
"you should have been more clear".
cops arent corrupt.
theyre some tough motherfuckers.
and lawyers? omg.......
maybe i a tough motherfucker too.
8 years of shit? and. uh.
all of it? really?
i yelled out my sister once.
to give back. she retreated.
her face was flushed.
with head down.
except. we had one time together.
one single time. she understands
me more than anyone else.
no. dont want miss mom.
but that was one time.
one time only.
a glimpse. beyond sex.
beyond the body.
if there is something beyond the body.
beth. an interesting name.
no. havent fantasized about anyone like that.
almost.
oh. right. cant mention proper names. oh well.
what is the difference between truth and lies?
"there are words that are not true"
oh. going in circles.
i like listening to music.
writing.
by myself.
im sure id get annoyed by having a cat at home.
or. i dunno. bella has 8.
one of hers is her sisters.
shes a good person. shes a good person.
thats my problem. well. or not. or too.
if its a trap? and if you find the way out?
you find another world? maybe the happiness
was a trap? people that have gone through misery.
pure misery. they are for real.
as for the rest? autists think.
normies dont.
wow. being in that world.
holy jesus shit.
but i guess i am.
when i am around people.
maybe its what its like being a guy?
i wouldnt know.
happiness in slavery?
no. not if you long
for something more.
if you remember a time when it was good.
i am a god among mortals.
i am the black cat in the matrix.
i am world party. i am death.
i am a man in black.
"if people see death? no.
but they sure sense him"
except. death is ultimate fear.
he picks you. he doesnt judge.
he wants more. and more. and more.
black magic. gold. 150 million dollars
per body. and its not about the flesh.
well. dont really get it. whats the difference
from eating some bacon or drinking milk?
should be the same thing? right?
as for the so called fraudulent christianity.
no. that was a test.
i made it better for britney spears.
yeah. now it gets trippy. WOAH.
interconnection.
except. i get high. from.
well. im a demon in heaven.
isnt everyone?
or am i an angel in hell?
only a fool goes where angels fear to tread.
am i even beyond that?
am i blacklight?
am i a man in black?
am i..... what am i?
wise men dont fall in love.
say for saying what you think.
or what youve heard.
or what youve seen.
whats the point?
if you point out faults in others.
theyll do the same to you.
masculinity has to go.
the pyramids have to go.
but we made them.
the khemetians?
why are we only 4%? of the world?
we are beyond the rh- bloodline.
we are beyond. beyond.
i am not blueblooded.
i am greenblooded.
there are connections in connections
in connections. some are negative polarity.
but dont be afraid. you are protected.
some are negative and positive polarity
at the same time. and beyond.
i was choleric for 8 months.
but i rose beyond
i didnt realize i needed nicotine.
i was a crackbaby but i wasnt.
maybe not that bad. or maybe too?
i eat souls. i eat souls.
with my eyes.
the true laserturk is me.
and some are neither positive nor negative polarity.
you have to see the connections.
this is like creole.
except it is existance.
everything changed from yesterday.
or some hours ago.
or minutes.
or seconds.
b/u.
"beyond the universe"
i am not old.
i am my fathers and mothers son.
that is all.
what you see isnt what you get.
it is what you are.
if you fight something.
you destroy its shell.
and it becomes beautiful.
as for me wanting to throw acetone
on the head psychiatrist in stockholm?
lol. silly idea ^____^
omg. i found someone like me.
omg. no thanks.
i dont want likeminded.
what a shithole.
fighting your shadow?
it is not possible to sell your soul.
you acquire one. you get better.
so what if reptiles own the world?
i like dragons. lots.
and if the world is fake?
well. theyre wasting their time?
this is paralelled in computergames.
well. its smarter to use
higher frequency in your room.
that in stockholm.
or not?
"computers and internet
have allowed us to make more
mistakes faster than any
other invention in human history
with the possible exceptions
of handguns and tequila"
as for that mexican guy.
i guessed he was?
i said "crazy mexicans"
before. well. maybe its true?
so. miss dae. i was gonna visit you.
except, you had to stay in
mexico for 2 weeks first.
llloolollo. REALLY BAD IDEA!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
as for the sicilian mafia.
the khazarian mafia.
the japanese mafia.
fuck. all of them. theyre nothing.
jag älskar dig bella. hjärta.
i manifest something when i think
of proper names.
i noticed it with this other dude.
he used to be a punker.
well. hes hell on 2 wheels.
i have been in rooms full of murderers.
they didnt scare me.
the top of the line mafia dudes.
hell. the ladies arent much fun either.
dude. like. woah.
so this guy caughed.
like his stomache was filled with blood.
well. ya know what? i healed him ^___^
i have seen people die.
and come back.
the greys world is complicated.
to say the least. omg!
as for my manifestation ability?
no. i could have turned into a scarab.
a plague rat.
but. no. im a human.
and thats all.
hi. im adamantine seas.
im african.
i come from khemet.
my mom could handle 27 unruly
7th graders at the same time.
without. saying. one. word.
my dad built up from nowhere.
no. not a fucking rose out of concrete.
way beyond that.
uhm. so. i thought.
"i hope youre okay sweet daddy"
he replied. uhm. sad sad smiley.
"you have no idea".
ok. dying doesnt seem so much fun.
i made a difference. and it was you tracey.
it was you. all along. nothing else matters.
as for "opinions"? fuck no.
ok. miss doggerland.
she was so amazing.
no. we didnt fuck.
that was the problem.
sigh.
anyway. i know about the men in black.
i have felt dark energy going into my body.
but also the opposite.
white energy.
its the same.
its just magic.
that dragon story was sweet. much love. mwah.
as for things happening?
things in the past affect things in the future.
things affect things in different places.
if one goes left another goes right.
and one that went up in the past
is 10 meters away on a photograph.
aka. IN SOVIET RUSSIA HISTORY WRITES YOU!!!!!!!!!!
lol. anyway! ^_____^
its all interconnected.
i sound like ive taken lsd and speed?
if you only knew.
oh my. judgement day.
sure will be fun.
omg! ^___^
(not)
ok. getting too happy. alalallalalalala.
etc.
not.
everything happens for a reason.
not really. some things are just evil.
serve no purpose.
not. reason! logic! lol.
muslims had too much fun before.
and where are those motherfuckers from?
blacks are from bugs. voodoo.
well. no prob.
muslims arent fire. they arent wind.
they arenth earth. they arent water.
theyre ether.
are they?
they are stronger than us reptiloids.
uhm....... real complicated omgmogmogmogmo!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIBUNGA!
omg no normal again! O_x
"i am my own fucking comic book"
mad wordologist. mad wordologist.
britney spears is for real.
sci fi is gay. supergay!
omg. wtf?!?!?!
damn! i wish i was your lover (not really)
so totally need to sleep.
kokorokoko nana moscouri.
whats that about anyways???????? ^________^
brb!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
i...... dont?
but i dont get lyrics of
other genres.
and i dont really care
for the music
part anymore.
i dont like depth.
oxes are evidently
down to earth.
hmm. whatever.
now its sinking again.
no such thing
as realistic.
i used to
"listening to music
while lying in bed"
its difficult to be
miserable when you
dont have emotions.
i used to interupt
people a lot more
before. now i just
say a few things
and they reply
"youre so wise".
well. i never really
get what people mean.
and. i dont mind them.
with how they are.
saras dude once said.
"everyone is different"
he sounded serious about it.
so. i have other sisters?
but i dont know about them
im useless at making shit up.
as for my stories. well. they
were pathetic. someone said
they were brutal. wow. didnt
know it was like that. but im
a guy. guys are supposed to be
brutal. no such thing as a
gentleman. there was a guy.
who didnt have anything private
on facebook. i wondered why.
now i know. i dont know if he was
palestinian or whatever. he moved
back there. he looked happy.
as for things happening. or not?
i dont believe in that. some christian
dude said that whatever happens happens.
maybe the resistance movement is.. a hoax?
and.. i dont believe in the soul. the eternal
soul. is it possible to make things better?
i dont think so. "you have made a difference".
i dont get it. what is the meaning of life?
"i dont know. maybe thats the point.
that we are supposed to search for it"
as for that disgusting smart rapper.
maybe thats the point? you get entertainment.
and you get insights. you cant just spam
people with smartness. its never worked for me
to learn anything. and if its abstract?
that hasnt worked for me. and the meme
culture? they say things its not possible
to say otherwise. you cant just go up to
someone and call them an idiot. thats
not how it works.................. ?
i guess the sheena entity was right.
one compliment one insult one compliment.
they wont know what hit them. hmm.
oh well. what is the meaning of life?
the north americans didnt build anything.
didnt have high tech defence. didnt collect
gold. they knew something. or did they?
makes you wonder. and south america.
maybe that was hell on earth? it still is.
the more things change the more they stay the same.
the vikings were good people. or were they?
its all so confusing. paradoxical. who can you trust?
thanks for putting up with me tracey. for so long.
thanks for giving me a dream. i dont know how its
important. make the world better. i dont know.
its easy to talk. and its all i know.
some days ago. maybe some week. everything was perfect.
but i gulped for more than i could handle.
i was happy at bitchute. but they kept nagging
about elon musk. so i tried twitter.
it was not a good idea. subversiveness.
traps. false prophets.
he who dies with the most toys.
is nonetheless. still dead.
the richer you are. the more enemies you have.
right? so. people think i talk with a university accent.
and that im right wing. they have thought that for a long
time. miss mom said sometime ago "he was your dad after all".
so. the point of being angry? i guess its better to hate
everything. than to say it. mister grosssmart rapper.
he didnt know it. or did he? i dont know.
first it giveth then it taketh away.
well. i like nietzsche. i read some viking aphorisms.
i couldnt..... really relate. so im not norse?
what am i? who am i? (mom + dad) = i........?
is that all there is to it? what is the point?
"i came from the gutter". but. yeah. i never
saw you as that. maybe others did.
so. darkhalo was pissed off at me.
so i started listening to plain liquid drum
and bass. it seems he still thinks i listen
to his music? that was a long time ago.
the 2? latest reviews? i didnt listen to
much at all. i just wanted to. well.
make him happy? bella said that. that
i also heal. with humour. but i wonder.
well. meow? when i was healthy. i didnt
say meow. and then a cat visited me.
its all really confusing. what is the
meaning of life? so. if you have fair skin.
and freckles. and that sorta hair. you know?
you are resistant to painkillers. but what
ive learned. is that im resistant to everything.
we come from khemet. our bloodline is real old.
real real old. i dont know what it means.
each one of us. is meant to rise to gods.
to saviours. to vanquish the false prophets?
how is this related to elephant souls 50
million lives? and why could i listen to
mr grosssmart rapper as background music?
i started with darkhalos. but as the
observer review? was it that one?
its not background music. it tells of
everything. without a word. like you
tracey. heart heart heart. and its
difficult to care about several.
"i dont know the secret to success
but the reason for failure.
is trying to please everyone"
maybe thats not try. they asked
if i think im jesus? i understood
that now. i understand a lot now.
or do i? everything changes
everything changes everything changes
everything everything everything....
i dont think its possible to sell your soul.
since. well. it doesnt.... exist?
so what is our purpose? to build things?
no. to... i dont know. if the universe
is a hoax. it gets even more complicated.
bella was so wonderful. like. i said before.
who would want to be 1 single transistor?
that can only be on or off? well. you know
what? bella wouldnt mind.
i tried to be normal the other day.
the transformation was complete.
stuck in a shell. angry.
not being able to express anything.
but bella wouldnt mind.
or. she would.
i said, before they took me away
"twin flames are stronger
than the psychiatric system".
bella didnt agree. as for other
people? no thanks. just for the fact
that they cant handle me talking
about her. everything else is ok.
but thats just too much. but thats
me. tomac. etc. how does it matter?
matter is the same thing as conciousness.
so. made a new song. it has an actual
meaning. it sounds original. subversive.
but its so logical. subspace.
curses. hidden meanings.
as for people not liking my music.
so what? bella did. maybe?
witch house only seems to be.
well. talentless losers.
anyone can make discordant music.
and im witch house. you get possessed
by a demonic spirit. you emit chaos
energy. and thats it. i had an old
song about that. nobody cares.
as for fame? miss electro should
have died. shes a fraud. a loser.
shes never achieved anything.
but she fooled me. just like
everyone else did.
she removed an early song about
bella. but an even earlier.
was it about her too?
so confusing. other people.
well. get everything. it seems
like that anyway?
i used to like making people happy.
but that was because i was unhappy.
so you cant be yourself.
you can make a difference.
for someone. somehow.
and thats all that matters.
i hope youre ok tracey? sad smiley.
if you miss someone.
and you cant talk to them.
what do you do?
what will happen in the next life?
is there a next life?
does energy exist?
you mean the most to me.
never seek to tell thy love.
love that is spoken of cannot be.
i havent really talked about you.
and you dont talk about me.
well. we started doing that.
at the same time.
im not pretending. but it doesnt
matter anymore. im happy.
as for mister boss wanting
to have a "discussion"?
well. some dude said that....
they invented the psychiatric
system. because the earths
frequency was getting too high.
i dont know if thats good or not.
if venus doesnt exist?
if its all an illusion?
whats the point?
if i critique something.
i find its truth.
if i point out the lies.
like hecate. she is the sun
which turns into the moon
and back again.
it doesnt have to do with darkness.
at all. miss mom said jesus wife
was called lilith? she doesnt talk
a lot. i talk a lot.
if i think of someone. they get
nightmares. but thats before
i got bad thoughts in my head?
or? "it was the computers fault"
what am i? tunguska. 1908.
before. everything was supernatural.
or was it?
as for east asians.
i havent met a lot.
but. wow. so amazing.
its not to do with looks.
because they dont have that.
(everything is relative)
but its possible to appretiate
anything about someone.
i was like that. like my dad.
i am my mom and my dad.
and thats it
?
as for me trying to be different.
well. everyone is like that.
when the sun goes down.
everything turns supernatural.
but i cant really stand outside.
or people.
there were some people on the subway
commute. when all of a sudden said
"omg i can summon heat???????"
and such.
and this is normal.
youre normal half of the time
youre. well. whatever that is.
half of the time.
i have missed out on so much.
but that was the point.
or was it? how can you fight
something. when only you exist?
if you even do that?
what is the difference between truth and lies?
if youre an energy transmuter.
how does that matter?
am i deep? am i wise?
well. i dont really know?
i am just too much.
like living inside the sun.
but is hallow. like me.
like staring into
radioactive stones.
but some people can handle that.
why dont they allow earths frequency to increase?
i am a prophet. a hand in the darkness.
that makes things happen.
i am a god. but i am also a person.
and everyone is like that.
"i can see it" bella said.
so. i was myself before.
i..... fought the power.
i dont know what else.
i met miss star.
and i only get 1 chance.
then it was over.
like mars cats.
they dont like being pets.
giving you advice on what to do.
and all you hear is meow meow
meow meow meow.........?
as for hope? desire? faith?
i dont know. whats the point?
there are no false prophets.
and linux instead of windows?
fuck no. and mac? omg....
as for how people spend their time?
how am i to judge? i dont know them.
i dont know their world. and i wont
(spirit says "you will"). if the world
disappears when i disappear. whats
the point? i used to collect insults
before. thought it was fun. horrible
things said to me. i used to emanate
genuine pride? uh.... so what?
whats the point of pride?
so. impossible is nothing to someone
who tries. well. whats the point?
just be yourself. nothing else matters.
so. when i was healthy. i was male.
now i do something. and forget what
i was doing after a second.
and if someone makes sense to me.
i say it. and i get mocked.
ridiculed. etc. bella wasnt like that.
except, her ma added 2 accounts.
one with bella. one with theresia.
so. i was male. i was respected.
i said supernatural things.
and there really wasnt any problem.
except everything you love will
reject you or die.
i got the urge to see waking life
again. but nothing works if i realize it.
"reality" literally changes. rules.
for things. it still looks the same.
to fool you. ok. lets try. no.
its a trap. ok. whatever.
i dont know what tomorrow holds.
or the next second. i tried saying
to someone, im not like other guys.
she didnt care. and then i wont say
that more. as for my fate? something
difficult to explain. like ive said.
miss mom has a stalker. but she
really doesnt. except after the slaves
were freed. the ottoman empire
still had fairskinned slaves in northern
africa. blonde and orange hair is only
4% of the worlds population.
thats really not a lot.
and it has to be a reason for that.
there are paradoxes beyond paradoxes.
i dont eat souls anymore?
i didnt. since the beginning of the year.
every word is a prayer. speak the truth
do not yield to anger. did i learn
anything at bitchute? i dont know.
its easier to destroy than to build up.
or is it? if you fake an entire world.
its really hard to break out of it.
so. i tried to be logical. truthful.
nietzsche wasnt white or german.
he was an aristocrat. hmm.
i guess i should look up
what that means.
"we use emotion for the many
and reserve reason for the few".
if mind and matter is the same thing.
what are emotions? does the soul exist?
someone mentioned. she got so much trauma.
her soul escaped her screaming body.
this is all really confusing.
she told the flesh "keep your shit together".
sara has occidiangela.
same as one of the julias.
you only get that.
by going through extreme pain.
going through hell and coming
back an angel.
but there are dark angels.
avenging angels.
listen to both sides of a story.
because the truth is somewhere in the middle.
the middle passage.
did i mention that new song?
rich people arent happier than anyone else.
so if a country is poor? so what?
south americans seem to hail pablo escobar
as a hero. this is all really confusing.
as for being disgusting? i dont know.
it comes with the territory?
change your mind and you change your world.
otakus are particular. you cant fool them.
maybe because theyre tired of this world.
the people in it. they may seem fucked up.
but theyre really wise.
long ago. on livejournal.
some dude said
"you can call it
"dont shed on me: an introspective look at morality""
uh..... wow?
then he posted some disgusting drawing hed made.
its all twosided. no. truth isnt disgusting.
but it goes hand it hand.
you can hide it.
but we all lie to ourselves.
no one else.
so. east asians are some perverted freaks.
but theyre also the wisest.
goes hand in hand.
and yugoslavians? uh. wow.
dont get me started.
i am shielded.
from bad.
from good.
maybe i was only supposed to be an artist?
and i didnt realise it?
an empty nobody?
a dead shell?
i dont know?
so. tough people treat their kids toughly.
but not in that way. they have discipline.
they have rules. they dont say them.
dad used to read comics to me.
so id get it.
i dont remember much of it.
i fell asleep quickly.
and he molested me.
great.
but its his peoples way of life.
knifesouth.
as for having beautiful eyes?
i surely dont.
or people see something else in me.
and i abused it.
i cant really tell the difference
between anger sadness joy.
that sure is weird........?
the theory of demonic possession.
as for parents. like you. tracey.
with a job. and friends.
"i cant do this all on my own
im no superman im no superman"
wow. i adore you. you manage to
do so many things. if i do something?
well. great for me. i really dont.
"you have made a difference"
"you have to reach your bottom"
well. why? you could get discipline instead?
listen to your elders. respect them.
or? fuck no. family is the worst thing ever.
so. im 2 minds now. is that good? or bad?
im many many minds. so freckle people.
are. well......? vampires. reptiloids.
its dumb to fight yourself.
but maybe thats the point.
if you fight a monster.
and realize you were fighting yourself.
the monster will disappear.
nietzsche was wrong.
and what is time?
i dont really...... understand it.
hey. why do you need to make diss tracks.
when you can just bitch someone out.
and tear them apart.
like a wolf. and sheep.
"i like my christian neighbors because
theyre christians. nothing else"
"watch out for wants of the body"
so. wellness. yada yada.
it works for others?
or does it?
if we get burnt out.
its a reason for that.
it doesnt have to be bad.
fair skinned are the sweetest.
most caring. well. im not?
and im not norse either.
im a fraud. and thats it.
"hell hath no fury like
a woman scorned.
which is nothing compared
to the sun as a measure
of gods wrath"
when you talk to artists.
they dont talk like humans.
they make art about it.
yes. demonic possession is real.
i dont feel the need to impress
you now tracey. it was real
bothersome before.
and then you abuse my trust?
but ive done that too.
how does all this matter?
i have a lot of spirits in me.
not just 2. i am not 1.
i am more zero.
phase shift.
polarity shift.
my snus is used up.
cant really do 2 things at a time.
i aint fit to live here
i just want to leave the world behind.
bella was the only one.
and thats it.
as for miss x saying i am?
uhm? ok?
how many has she said that to?
if id see her now.
she wouldnt give a fuck.
so she hasnt waited for me.
she doesnt want me.
its all a fraud.
except its not.
the brotherhood isnt happy with me.
she could have saved me from them.
but. she wasnt the one.
true love is magic.
so you do magic.
easy.
no such thing as white or black magic.
its just magic.
"i want you to
listen to me.
my eyes are open".
well. great for me.
im naive.
because im a guy.
best thing since sliced bread?
well. no.
so. i tried the music route again.
bad idea. i tried having "opinions".
i tried to be a "prophet".
i tried to protect an angel.
but theres far worse
demons than me in the world.
i dont really care for ambient
chillout etc anymore.
im not a cat. im a dog.
etc. im tired.
its ok youre ok.
that was sweet.
real real sweet.
so you talk about me?
i dont know hat. sad smiley.
im not special. like that
nonpopular rapper i dissed.
but i wasnt mad at him.
it was christianity.
but it was all a fraud.
and the fraud was me.
there are layers beyond
layers of obfuscation.
there was a ufo researcher.
the men in black visited him.
i guess thats worse than the greys.
and the greens. omg.
chills. eeeeeeeeeeeek.
really not happy smiley.
but i guess the men in black had the chills.
you are exposed. you are the unseen.
but you are also slave to someone.
my dad went up against the rottschilds.
but theyre not called that.
theyre called the cranes.
i cant handle miss mom anymore
but. shes old. for real.
shes on another level.
i cant imagine what shes gone through.
no. it wasnt better before.
not in any way. feminism is good.
women are good. women are complicated.
and guys are good. guys are complicated.
so. we freckle people steal souls.
we arent supposed to have permanent relationships.
or frequency is electricity.
we are worse than the japanese.
and of course. more wise.
more layers.
and most dont even look past the first.
or they see the last in an instant.
im quite convinced that i have snake eyes.
thats what freaks people out. or not.
snake eyes are just cat eyes.
and cats are nice. i like them.
and. uh. i like dragons?
the cia and fbi arent bad.
there are black hats and white hats.
good hackers bad hackers.
but theyre all fighting for something.
you can say a lot with a little.
i never knew that.
well. i did.
so. i made julia pregnant. thats a fact.
but thats over.
if you die it doesnt have to mean youre
a lot soul (keep telling yourself that)
miss stalker just said its safe.
shes forgiven me. maybe?
the police doesnt believe her.
"you should have been more clear".
cops arent corrupt.
theyre some tough motherfuckers.
and lawyers? omg.......
maybe i a tough motherfucker too.
8 years of shit? and. uh.
all of it? really?
i yelled out my sister once.
to give back. she retreated.
her face was flushed.
with head down.
except. we had one time together.
one single time. she understands
me more than anyone else.
no. dont want miss mom.
but that was one time.
one time only.
a glimpse. beyond sex.
beyond the body.
if there is something beyond the body.
beth. an interesting name.
no. havent fantasized about anyone like that.
almost.
oh. right. cant mention proper names. oh well.
what is the difference between truth and lies?
"there are words that are not true"
oh. going in circles.
i like listening to music.
writing.
by myself.
im sure id get annoyed by having a cat at home.
or. i dunno. bella has 8.
one of hers is her sisters.
shes a good person. shes a good person.
thats my problem. well. or not. or too.
if its a trap? and if you find the way out?
you find another world? maybe the happiness
was a trap? people that have gone through misery.
pure misery. they are for real.
as for the rest? autists think.
normies dont.
wow. being in that world.
holy jesus shit.
but i guess i am.
when i am around people.
maybe its what its like being a guy?
i wouldnt know.
happiness in slavery?
no. not if you long
for something more.
if you remember a time when it was good.
i am a god among mortals.
i am the black cat in the matrix.
i am world party. i am death.
i am a man in black.
"if people see death? no.
but they sure sense him"
except. death is ultimate fear.
he picks you. he doesnt judge.
he wants more. and more. and more.
black magic. gold. 150 million dollars
per body. and its not about the flesh.
well. dont really get it. whats the difference
from eating some bacon or drinking milk?
should be the same thing? right?
as for the so called fraudulent christianity.
no. that was a test.
i made it better for britney spears.
yeah. now it gets trippy. WOAH.
interconnection.
except. i get high. from.
well. im a demon in heaven.
isnt everyone?
or am i an angel in hell?
only a fool goes where angels fear to tread.
am i even beyond that?
am i blacklight?
am i a man in black?
am i..... what am i?
wise men dont fall in love.
say for saying what you think.
or what youve heard.
or what youve seen.
whats the point?
if you point out faults in others.
theyll do the same to you.
masculinity has to go.
the pyramids have to go.
but we made them.
the khemetians?
why are we only 4%? of the world?
we are beyond the rh- bloodline.
we are beyond. beyond.
i am not blueblooded.
i am greenblooded.
there are connections in connections
in connections. some are negative polarity.
but dont be afraid. you are protected.
some are negative and positive polarity
at the same time. and beyond.
i was choleric for 8 months.
but i rose beyond
i didnt realize i needed nicotine.
i was a crackbaby but i wasnt.
maybe not that bad. or maybe too?
i eat souls. i eat souls.
with my eyes.
the true laserturk is me.
and some are neither positive nor negative polarity.
you have to see the connections.
this is like creole.
except it is existance.
everything changed from yesterday.
or some hours ago.
or minutes.
or seconds.
b/u.
"beyond the universe"
i am not old.
i am my fathers and mothers son.
that is all.
what you see isnt what you get.
it is what you are.
if you fight something.
you destroy its shell.
and it becomes beautiful.
as for me wanting to throw acetone
on the head psychiatrist in stockholm?
lol. silly idea ^____^
omg. i found someone like me.
omg. no thanks.
i dont want likeminded.
what a shithole.
fighting your shadow?
it is not possible to sell your soul.
you acquire one. you get better.
so what if reptiles own the world?
i like dragons. lots.
and if the world is fake?
well. theyre wasting their time?
this is paralelled in computergames.
well. its smarter to use
higher frequency in your room.
that in stockholm.
or not?
"computers and internet
have allowed us to make more
mistakes faster than any
other invention in human history
with the possible exceptions
of handguns and tequila"
as for that mexican guy.
i guessed he was?
i said "crazy mexicans"
before. well. maybe its true?
so. miss dae. i was gonna visit you.
except, you had to stay in
mexico for 2 weeks first.
llloolollo. REALLY BAD IDEA!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
as for the sicilian mafia.
the khazarian mafia.
the japanese mafia.
fuck. all of them. theyre nothing.
jag älskar dig bella. hjärta.
i manifest something when i think
of proper names.
i noticed it with this other dude.
he used to be a punker.
well. hes hell on 2 wheels.
i have been in rooms full of murderers.
they didnt scare me.
the top of the line mafia dudes.
hell. the ladies arent much fun either.
dude. like. woah.
so this guy caughed.
like his stomache was filled with blood.
well. ya know what? i healed him ^___^
i have seen people die.
and come back.
the greys world is complicated.
to say the least. omg!
as for my manifestation ability?
no. i could have turned into a scarab.
a plague rat.
but. no. im a human.
and thats all.
hi. im adamantine seas.
im african.
i come from khemet.
my mom could handle 27 unruly
7th graders at the same time.
without. saying. one. word.
my dad built up from nowhere.
no. not a fucking rose out of concrete.
way beyond that.
uhm. so. i thought.
"i hope youre okay sweet daddy"
he replied. uhm. sad sad smiley.
"you have no idea".
ok. dying doesnt seem so much fun.
i made a difference. and it was you tracey.
it was you. all along. nothing else matters.
as for "opinions"? fuck no.
ok. miss doggerland.
she was so amazing.
no. we didnt fuck.
that was the problem.
sigh.
anyway. i know about the men in black.
i have felt dark energy going into my body.
but also the opposite.
white energy.
its the same.
its just magic.
that dragon story was sweet. much love. mwah.
as for things happening?
things in the past affect things in the future.
things affect things in different places.
if one goes left another goes right.
and one that went up in the past
is 10 meters away on a photograph.
aka. IN SOVIET RUSSIA HISTORY WRITES YOU!!!!!!!!!!
lol. anyway! ^_____^
its all interconnected.
i sound like ive taken lsd and speed?
if you only knew.
oh my. judgement day.
sure will be fun.
omg! ^___^
(not)
ok. getting too happy. alalallalalalala.
etc.
not.
everything happens for a reason.
not really. some things are just evil.
serve no purpose.
not. reason! logic! lol.
muslims had too much fun before.
and where are those motherfuckers from?
blacks are from bugs. voodoo.
well. no prob.
muslims arent fire. they arent wind.
they arenth earth. they arent water.
theyre ether.
are they?
they are stronger than us reptiloids.
uhm....... real complicated omgmogmogmogmo!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
KAWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIBUNGA!
omg no normal again! O_x
"i am my own fucking comic book"
mad wordologist. mad wordologist.
britney spears is for real.
sci fi is gay. supergay!
omg. wtf?!?!?!
damn! i wish i was your lover (not really)
so totally need to sleep.
kokorokoko nana moscouri.
whats that about anyways???????? ^________^
brb!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_____^
