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hej tracey. jag vet att du förstår allt på nåt sätt. jag skiftar som vanligt lol ^_^

jag säger inte att du ska lyssna på den här

eller att du kommer tycka om den

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fDhu6ZF0X90

det är mest bilden

för mig är den en tjej som rider på en sköldpadda

det är bella och jag

godnatt tracey

du är underbar som alla andra i världen

profeten sofia kanske ahahaha ^___^

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hi hello mr diary.

since everyone on my level isnt on my level and is sickly clairevoyant.

i sort of wonder what i have achieved? beyond.. darkness?

i might be good at writing. the flow. but i remember hearing that compliment in..

2006? so again i have not really evolved since back then. i cannot say i have

expanded my vocabulary. or achieved anything really?

again, i might have improved some people, but they turned atrocious afterwards.

ill mention 2. one was a widow. everyone hated her for how she was before.

her last chance were my parents. but they showed her the cold shoulder.

it looked like she had been crying for weeks.

now i remember my mom crying for an entire year.

but its possible to lie about anything however you want.

she missed her dead dad because they used to smoke and fuck together.

awwww how cute! so she wished i would turn into him.

well, i did. after a year his spirit came into me.

i cannot say if it was better or worse.

but soon afterwards i got the school treatment.

that was a looooot of years.

i turned clairevoyant then. when i was 7.

but it did not last long.

and no one had told me about my powers

or how to find them or use them.

hey, if you were a bully or a freeloader.

just go fuck yourself. hang yourself.

go kill your friends. whatever.

you have never experienced misery or

loneliness or anxiety or nothingness

or anything. youre a god damn joke.

as for the saying, forgive your enemies

but never forget their names?

i disagree. if i have an enemy and they

are in pain i will make them happy again.

i guess that sounds futile because as soon

as they get up on their feet they will plot

to destroy you. but im stupid like that. naive.

i believe in the goodness in everyone. hey, maybe

others do as well towards me. who knows.

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hey. im getting some song recommendations that bella sent me back in the days. but i never got anything then. was too busy trying to impress. sigh =*( as for that song simple man. it wasnt mom that heard it. it was my sis. so shes a good woman. maybe. i dunno =\

anyway. hopes and dreams and aspirations are a dangerous thing. if it doesnt work and its too difficult just dont give a fuck. it doesnt lead anywhere. slit your throat and be done with it. anyway. should make a song called belarus. i guess one exists. hey. and the russian mail. and other lovely russian themes </3 how about bulimia rape? i dunno the term. in some places people do that. you are allowed to do what you will. up to a point. if you dont learn from your mistakes you get raped when you get your first menstruation. cute huh? because you raped your family. you raped your families resources. and you never ever learned. now you will get a copy of yourself so you might learn. to see what a fucking joke you are. hey i searched for worldraper on youtube before. there was actually some results. dont find anything now. it doesnt matter. as for this new album i made? jesus christ. i made it fucking before? what the fuck? no i dont fucking believe deja vu means youre on the right track. its just fucking stupid. hey, i have a proper website now. its lovely. i update and such. if anyone cares? good. they dont make their presence known though. but its never been that. i get it now. the reason i only had 1 chance on whatever site. is. my sis pretended to be that 1 person. sick disgusting cunt. and it was obviously 0 chances. hey, that dude said the truth. theres music about me now. quite a lot i guess? i dunno really. im a legend.

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life goes on. but not the same. into your eyes. my. face. remains. anyway thats madonna. its not deep or anything. the world i live in is what was presented for me. i dont believe theres any point in being angry but sometimes its needed. anyway. =(

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as for getting a tatu. with rhiannon and kirins name? i dunno. no. ill just think negatively of them whenever i see the tatu. i want them to be happy. and not the misery bella and i got. but i guess theyll get both and even worse. joy =*( anyway ri which i supposedly was to get tatued in my face is short for rikspucko. its like im bad im nationwide. but not in any way to be proud of it. not that being an asshole is anything to be proud of either. but, hey.

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wow. god damn disgusting. i bought what looked like homebaked whatever. it tasted like. how do you say? some cheap shampoo? what the fuck?

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hey. i dont know a lot about therese. last year i got into extratone a lot. it seems she listens to it as well. i guess we were together then. but i dunno. weve been together since 2019. since 1990.

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hey. i happened to find my own music

Regler Är Oreglerade För De Som Gör Reglerna

that sounds pretty good. i have no idea how i made the sounds? and i do sound like a complete retard in it. so thats great.

hey. i got a hate song. it was made awhile ago i guess. it sounds like my music. like, it builds up? lots of different sounds?

again i dunno how i made songs before. i didnt really have a flow or anything. i just worked real hard on them.

i dunno if thats appretiated though. or if anything is.

again, the old sentiment, its now what you know, its who. is all that matters.

darkhalos music sounds like a fucking joke. but then again, this is only from my reality. and i guess my sis has decided it.

i dunno why i tried to be someone. i should have just killed myself.

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again, i wish i was like my mom or you tracey or ida or bella. i see no point in talking at all. people are morons and thats all they are. the old sentiment holds true. for every 10000 words of lies there is 1 truth. or you can just shut the fuck up and say 1 word per day.